Ellyse Perry

Like whether you live to the line of where I guess like, not to be too woo woo, but like your inner being pulls you or whether you live to a line that is about, well, if I do this, people will like me or if I accomplish this, I'm going to feel great.

Or if I win this, like that'll be, that'll be it.

That's when I'll like, like myself kind of thing.

And so have I. I think we all do at various times.

I could not sit here and say that if I get out for a duck in the next match that I play that I won't have a moment where I'm like...

this is really affecting how I feel about myself.

Um, and I think we all do that, um, to various levels.

I guess it's probably just recognizing that and accepting it.

And then in some time, in some way shifting that back to no, like I'm just me, like, and how I navigate that world needs to be in line with how I want to be.

on a very fundamental human level, not how I want to be because I play cricket or I'm an athlete or I'm a daughter or anything like that.

Yeah.

And I think sometimes that shows up most when you interact with a stranger.

On any given day.

Well, I think like if you give them the time of day and there's days where I am so far in my own head and so concerned about something to do with me that I can't see a fellow human being next to me for them.

And there's other days where I'm like really like I guess calm and composed and just present.

And that person next to me, I don't know them from a bar or so, but they're the most interesting person in that moment and you want to know more.

Yeah, that lets you up.

Um, I think firstly, I kind of feel a sense of, okay, well, what's going on?

Why am I, why am I in this space?

And then if it's kind of something that I don't, I don't love about myself or a characteristic that I don't, I would rather not do, then I'd feel guilty.