Esther Falick

It's more that it, like, it removed a sense of loneliness.

Because even in those moments when I felt like there was so much going on that, like, the rest of my family wasn't aware of what I was going through, I was like, oh, he was there witnessing, like, all of it.

even all the gender feelings, he was there and feeling that with me.

So at this point, I'm like another broke trans girl in New York.

Don't really have a very good job.

I'm in debt.

Haven't been able to afford electrolysis.

I really want to do hair removal, and I haven't been able to do that.

People who knew me before can tell you, yeah, I was a really hairy girl.

I was floundering and really scared.

Oh, yeah.

And it was, like, during that in-between state that I lost my dad, too, so I was like, oh, my God.

On my dad's first birthday since he passed.

I have a friend over.

It's, like, not a date, but it's, like, sort of a date.

And the whole night, I'm talking about, like, my dreams for the future, and she keeps saying, like,

God, you have such like a fire in you.

And I was like, thanks.

Wow.

We go back to my house.