Michelle Ryan

I don't actually know how we done it.

I know for myself, it was living hell.

You had to wake up every morning.

There was two young kids at that time that needed me to wake up every morning.

Like going to the doctors, if you were relying on a tablet to get up out of the bed, for God's sake.

And essentially that's the way it was.

And that became, I'm going to speak for me personally here, that became my new normal.

It's horrible because I was never that person.

And I always say, and even 15 years nearly down the road, I always say that if daddy was to come back to this earth for one day, he wouldn't recognize the Shelley that he left.

You know, I had to learn how to, it was like kind of like learning how to walk again.

It never goes back to normal.

Even when we got him back, it gets harder.

I think it gets harder as the years go on.

It does get harder.

I rang.

I rang.

I can't remember who I rang.

I remember a partner, I think it was.

And I turned around and I just said, I knew it.

I said, I knew he was there.