Shahroo Izadi

I deserve it.

This year is different.

And again, they make the mistake, unfortunately, of thinking that desire and desperation and even shame are going to be enough to drive them and to build new behaviors.

As if I could say to myself, I hate myself so much, I'm going to learn French quickly.

Doesn't make any sense, right?

And so...

The third week, the School of Life put on this workshop that was called Making Changes That Last.

I lost eight stone.

Whilst I was piloting out this making changes that last to the school of life and they kept selling out and selling out and selling out, I was losing weight at speed because I had started to treat my weight problem as a food problem, not as a size problem.

And the weight was falling off me the same way, you know, yeah, the same way someone who's using just needs to worry about the behavior of not using today.

What do I need to make it easier not to use today?

And being in recovery or being clean will take care of itself, right?

Yeah.

And so I was like, right.

And the turning point actually in that moment was when I was in therapy, my therapist asked me, what if you never lose weight?

And I spent my whole life and this was, I was at my biggest and I was like, no, no, no, no.

I want to be body positive, but at some point I will still be losing weight.

Like I want to like my body and not hate it and not be horrible to it.

But I do not think my life's going to be great if I remain at this size.

No, I'm afraid not.