Celeste Beard

I was very depressed and I felt like I was losing everything and I just wanted to die.

I was very depressed and I felt like I was losing everything and I just wanted to die.

We would go outside and smoke. I found out about her trauma. That kind of drew me to her.

We would go outside and smoke. I found out about her trauma. That kind of drew me to her.

When I got him home, he couldn't walk. He was still in the wheelchair. It took a long time to get him into the house and into bed. I knew something was wrong, but I didn't know what. So I told him, I'm having you admitted back in the hospital. On our way to the hospital, I just knew. I said, honey, this is not going to work. You're not well. Something is wrong.

When I got him home, he couldn't walk. He was still in the wheelchair. It took a long time to get him into the house and into bed. I knew something was wrong, but I didn't know what. So I told him, I'm having you admitted back in the hospital. On our way to the hospital, I just knew. I said, honey, this is not going to work. You're not well. Something is wrong.

And he was crying all the way to the hospital, and it just broke my heart because he was saying, you know, please. He died on the third day. I was unconsolable. I was beside myself because I did not see that coming. My whole world just ended right there. And then the betrayals started.

And he was crying all the way to the hospital, and it just broke my heart because he was saying, you know, please. He died on the third day. I was unconsolable. I was beside myself because I did not see that coming. My whole world just ended right there. And then the betrayals started.

I was unconsolable. They had to shoot me up with Haladol right through my jeans. I was beside myself. I did not see that coming.

I was unconsolable. They had to shoot me up with Haladol right through my jeans. I was beside myself. I did not see that coming.

Steve was very gregarious and he just made me feel safe and he liked that he made me feel safe.

Steve was very gregarious and he just made me feel safe and he liked that he made me feel safe.

I never asked her to do anything to Steven.

I never asked her to do anything to Steven.

To shoot Steve?

To shoot Steve?

That's not what the whole tape said.

That's not what the whole tape said.

I thought they were my best friends.

I thought they were my best friends.

That's a lie.

That's a lie.

I didn't want to be alone. He was a good guy. He was honest and he was my friend.

I didn't want to be alone. He was a good guy. He was honest and he was my friend.

She said she wasn't going to rot in prison while I'm married to somebody else.

She said she wasn't going to rot in prison while I'm married to somebody else.

I wouldn't call that love.

I wouldn't call that love.

March 28, the day I was arrested.

March 28, the day I was arrested.

She said she loved Craig, and she wanted her children to have a father. The twins were three months early, and back then you couldn't touch them. So I feel like we never really bonded.

She said she loved Craig, and she wanted her children to have a father. The twins were three months early, and back then you couldn't touch them. So I feel like we never really bonded.

I never asked her to do anything to Stephen.

I never asked her to do anything to Stephen.

She got a sweetheart deal. She's going to say anything.

She got a sweetheart deal. She's going to say anything.

I never changed his bandages. I never did anything like they're saying that's a lie.

I never changed his bandages. I never did anything like they're saying that's a lie.

I went from one man to another because I was always looking for somebody to bring me happiness.

I went from one man to another because I was always looking for somebody to bring me happiness.

Because it went to me first, and then after I died, was incapacitated or found guilty, then it would go to them.

Because it went to me first, and then after I died, was incapacitated or found guilty, then it would go to them.

No.

No.

And he should have been.

And he should have been.

Christina testified, I don't know, 298 times when Dick questioned her.

Christina testified, I don't know, 298 times when Dick questioned her.

When I did find a good man, I would leave them because I just figured I would ruin everything.

When I did find a good man, I would leave them because I just figured I would ruin everything.

That's not what the whole tape said.

That's not what the whole tape said.

We had Dallas Sound Labs. He had 30 years of experience. He proved that those tapes were altered and edited.

We had Dallas Sound Labs. He had 30 years of experience. He proved that those tapes were altered and edited.

Because Dick didn't want me to. I was bawling at the end because I wanted to testify.

Because Dick didn't want me to. I was bawling at the end because I wanted to testify.

Yes, I did. He didn't think we needed it. He really thought it was a slam dunk.

Yes, I did. He didn't think we needed it. He really thought it was a slam dunk.

That I was home free, that I was going to be found not guilty.

That I was home free, that I was going to be found not guilty.

Hello there. Hello. It's nice to meet you in person.

Hello there. Hello. It's nice to meet you in person.

The first 10 years was really hard and took a long time for me to forgive all the people that lied about me. Everybody betrayed me, my daughters. I thought they were my best friends. I just wish I would have raised them with discipline and showed them more love, nurturing love, instead of teaching them to lie. When they lied about me in court, I only have myself to blame for that.

The first 10 years was really hard and took a long time for me to forgive all the people that lied about me. Everybody betrayed me, my daughters. I thought they were my best friends. I just wish I would have raised them with discipline and showed them more love, nurturing love, instead of teaching them to lie. When they lied about me in court, I only have myself to blame for that.

I just want to die. I mean, I just want to die because I could not believe what they did. I wish they would have given me the death penalty because this is the death penalty, what I got. But it's the long, excruciatingly painful death penalty.

I just want to die. I mean, I just want to die because I could not believe what they did. I wish they would have given me the death penalty because this is the death penalty, what I got. But it's the long, excruciatingly painful death penalty.

Yes.

Yes.

Well, it's not fair, but she's mentally ill. I can at least have compassion for that.

Well, it's not fair, but she's mentally ill. I can at least have compassion for that.

I was wild, I was spoiled, and I was immature. But I'm not that same person now. But I certainly didn't deserve this sentence. And I should at least be free after doing more time than Tracy.

I was wild, I was spoiled, and I was immature. But I'm not that same person now. But I certainly didn't deserve this sentence. And I should at least be free after doing more time than Tracy.

To talk to my daughters.

To talk to my daughters.

I would tell them that I always loved them. And I'm sorry that I wasn't the mother that you needed me to be. And I would do anything just to have a conversation.

I would tell them that I always loved them. And I'm sorry that I wasn't the mother that you needed me to be. And I would do anything just to have a conversation.

We were supposed to live on $35,000 a month. but it never worked out that way.

We were supposed to live on $35,000 a month. but it never worked out that way.

I was very depressed, and I felt like I was losing everything, and I just wanted to die.

I was very depressed, and I felt like I was losing everything, and I just wanted to die.