Charlene

I'd had depression on and off since I was a teenager. I was functioning though. I had a career, had a master's degree, was doing well, had a partner. So life was going pretty well. It was just these symptoms that I wanted to see if we could control better.

I was working with this client who was very flirtatious with me. So I would tell my colleagues, oh, he's very flirtatious with me. But never in my mind would I have thought I'm going to have a relationship with this person. Ethically, it wasn't something I would do. But then one day something changed. All of a sudden I was very bold and went up to him and just said, why don't you just kiss me? And he did.

That launched me into so much more danger from that point on.

Minun pitäisi tuoda hieman kontekstia. Ajattele, että olet henkilö, joka on ollut tällaisessa depressiivisessa elämässäsi elämässäsi. Ja sitten todennäköisesti tämä dopamiini on mielessäsi ja se vahvistaa sen suurimmalle tasolle, jota se voi saada. Se tuntuu melko hyvältä. Luulet, että depressiini on vahvistettu.

It feels like you're living your best life. And part of living my best life was, well, I had this kind of insatiable sex drive all of a sudden. And that meant seeking out men wherever I could seek them out.

I would go to bars and get all dressed up and just pick somebody up at the bar. It can be anybody on the street. I went into the local pizza place and found a guy. The local 7-Eleven found a guy. I needed to have sex with as many people as I could have sex with. That's what it felt like. There was this drive that you had to do this.

Vuonna 2017 määritin, että minulla oli seksia noin 25 eri miehiä. He olisivat saaneet ystäviä seuraavaksi, ja se olisi yksikö, ja sitten yksikö, ja sitten luulen, että se tuli yhdessä viisi. Viisi eri miehiä. Se tuli olemaan joitain erittäin epäselväisiä henkilökohtaisia.

Ja kun ajattelet, kuinka se tuntuu siinä hetkellä, se tuntui hyvältä. Se tuntui niin, että olin todella iloinen tekemisessä sitä. Se onnistui siihen tarpeeseen. Mutta sitten kun ajattelet, miksi minulla on seksissä viisi miehiä, mutta se ei tapahtunut sinulle, että jotain on eri. Jotain on eri sinulle syystä lääkäristä. Se on vain...

Ajattelit, että olen 42 tai 43, ehkä tämä on se, mitä on niin, ettei ole yllättynyt. Ehkä tämä on se, mitä on niin, että olen perimenopaus. Ei ollut mitään ajattelua silloin, että jotain oli todella väärää.

There were so many things that I did compulsively. I would dye my hair day after day until it finally all started falling out, and I had to shave it off first.

I was driving aggressively, getting into road rage incidents with people. One of them was spending money, so I'd go into any kind of clothing store and buy a lot of clothes. Just spent money until there was no more money to spend anywhere, and there were no more credit cards I could get. And then I ended up taking out all of the retirement I had in a previous job.

And I went to see her and said, you know, I think there's something wrong. Maybe I have bipolar disorder, because that was what I thought. And I remember her whipping around, and she had a rolling chair. And she whipped around and said, it's the medication. She was 95% sure it was the medication. And she had to get me off of that medication. But even then, Noel, I was not...

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are on this drug and they have no idea of the damage that this can cause. So I think it's really important to get the word out there that there are other people who've been through this and you can make it through. And two, that it doesn't have to keep happening. This doesn't have to happen to them.

Hi, guys. Happy New Year. Thanks for taking my call.

Hi, guys. Happy New Year. Thanks for taking my call.

Hi, guys. Happy New Year. Thanks for taking my call.

A question about my frivolous spending is where we're at to start off the new year. A little about my background. I'm a single mom to a toddler earning $88,000 annually and working part-time. I have a budget that I think, or at least I thought was quite strong. And there's a line item in my budget for food and spending. But without sale, I'm blowing through that allowance every month.

A question about my frivolous spending is where we're at to start off the new year. A little about my background. I'm a single mom to a toddler earning $88,000 annually and working part-time. I have a budget that I think, or at least I thought was quite strong. And there's a line item in my budget for food and spending. But without sale, I'm blowing through that allowance every month.

A question about my frivolous spending is where we're at to start off the new year. A little about my background. I'm a single mom to a toddler earning $88,000 annually and working part-time. I have a budget that I think, or at least I thought was quite strong. And there's a line item in my budget for food and spending. But without sale, I'm blowing through that allowance every month.