Pete Wright

No, I think it does make sense. It makes a lot of sense from the irrational I'm up at night thing. But also because I know you are you have when there is that conversation, potential conversation that's happening outside of your purview. You want to regain control of the narrative, right? Like I'm a part of this. If I'm not a part of it, I have no agency.

No, I think it does make sense. It makes a lot of sense from the irrational I'm up at night thing. But also because I know you are you have when there is that conversation, potential conversation that's happening outside of your purview. You want to regain control of the narrative, right? Like I'm a part of this. If I'm not a part of it, I have no agency.

But it only works. Like that whole plan is great. Like I am an absolute advocate for imagining the worst so that when something slightly better but also bad happens, it's not as bad. But that only works if you can stop yourself from perseverating about it.

But it only works. Like that whole plan is great. Like I am an absolute advocate for imagining the worst so that when something slightly better but also bad happens, it's not as bad. But that only works if you can stop yourself from perseverating about it.

This goes back to the first definition of gluttony, right? That habitually greedy and voracious eating and drinking and will substitute eating and drinking for negative behavior. sort of negative narcissistic thought spirals. Right. Right. Maybe our favorite word, perseveration. Right. Exactly. And so I think that's the, that's the, the piece that like it's habitually greedy. Right.

This goes back to the first definition of gluttony, right? That habitually greedy and voracious eating and drinking and will substitute eating and drinking for negative behavior. sort of negative narcissistic thought spirals. Right. Right. Maybe our favorite word, perseveration. Right. Exactly. And so I think that's the, that's the, the piece that like it's habitually greedy. Right.

And I am, I really think that, that an object lesson here is to figure out like, how do you break that habit? If you get into this spiral and you are unaccustomed to being in that spiral and you are not living with sort of, um, you know, chemical imbalanced OCD, um,

And I am, I really think that, that an object lesson here is to figure out like, how do you break that habit? If you get into this spiral and you are unaccustomed to being in that spiral and you are not living with sort of, um, you know, chemical imbalanced OCD, um,

that leads you to those sorts of spirals that maybe there is something that you can, you can think about that, uh, allows you to break that habit, find some new triggers. You know what I mean? You know, and, and I would say like, does, does it potentially coincide with a change in medication? What does Bonnie say?

that leads you to those sorts of spirals that maybe there is something that you can, you can think about that, uh, allows you to break that habit, find some new triggers. You know what I mean? You know, and, and I would say like, does, does it potentially coincide with a change in medication? What does Bonnie say?

I have not brought it up to Bonnie yet because that is the sign of a perseverative narcissist right there. Interesting. Okay.

I have not brought it up to Bonnie yet because that is the sign of a perseverative narcissist right there. Interesting. Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah.

There was a change in something. There was a change in something. And I think that that's one of the most interesting things for me. It's like I can go on a med for a long, long time and there is no change. But something changes in me that causes the medication to have a different effect. And right now, everything's hunky-dory. I'm feeling fine.

There was a change in something. There was a change in something. And I think that that's one of the most interesting things for me. It's like I can go on a med for a long, long time and there is no change. But something changes in me that causes the medication to have a different effect. And right now, everything's hunky-dory. I'm feeling fine.

But everything you're describing says to me that something changed, and it's either emotional, behavioral, or chemical.

But everything you're describing says to me that something changed, and it's either emotional, behavioral, or chemical.

Yeah, right. I think it's – man, it's so hard when – because those part of the – The reason those things are so diabolical, these kinds of changes in patterns, is because it is a specific lack of agency or lack of control that allows them to fester. Right. And it is only when it's like, I don't know, it's like ants in your kitchen, right? You see one.

Yeah, right. I think it's – man, it's so hard when – because those part of the – The reason those things are so diabolical, these kinds of changes in patterns, is because it is a specific lack of agency or lack of control that allows them to fester. Right. And it is only when it's like, I don't know, it's like ants in your kitchen, right? You see one.