Riley (caller)

I was really able to at least trust in myself and know that, well, I'm going to figure this shit out one way or another.

And so when that happened over this, excuse me, this summer, and I was able to see also, and I knew I would be able to rely on my team and my brothers was because they also kept showing up and we kept showing up for each other and we never gave in.

We like, we thought,

we thought we were done for, we thought we were going to have to start over and from school from square one, but we there, you know, the show's really F and I try, I call myself a realist.

I try and, uh, yeah, operate in reality, but there is an element to this where, uh, that is a bit of that idealistic fantasy of where like the, uh,

The future that I'm working towards doesn't exist yet.

And so I have to force myself to believe that it does exist and that I don't have an option.

And so I twist that and use that and put that into the daily actions.

And I can only just...

Just look at the results and know, yeah, my back went out and I handled it.

Yes.

And now I'm in better shape than I've ever been.

Yeah.

thank you and i think that i think that's the uh the biggest part that i fight myself over is because i am able to look back and say oh i've done this and this i've i've dropped my own ep i've i've dropped a live album i've done i've done these great things that me five years ago would have been stunned he wouldn't have believed it would happen but

It has, and I'm not even... This is just the beginning.

That's right, dude.

I think it's the level of the standard where I try and bring myself and ground myself to be like... You're not... I try and hold myself accountable to make sure I am doing enough, but not get too... I guess...

drive myself crazy where it's, you know, like it's never enough.

I have to be able to actually trust that what I am doing is actually something because I'm very hard on myself and especially with my, like my back still gives me problems.

And so on 75 hard, I'll be mad at myself if I can't,