Adnan Syed

It was very wrong.

You know what I mean?

It's nothing that I'm proud of.

It's not, you know, I'm very ashamed of it.

You know, I don't, I don't, I don't say that we were kids to try to put it in context.

or try to make an excuse.

I mean, well, maybe I am, right?

I mean, I wish I could say that it was like, you know, some feeling of religion or something, or a feeling of wrong, but it wasn't.

I mean, you know, I was just kind of caught red-handed, so to speak, sometimes.

I mean, I remember the cops telling me sometimes they have murderers standing with a knife in their hand next to the body saying to them that they didn't do it because your brain goes into this shock and it shuts down.

And I was like, well, maybe that happened.

Maybe it was an accident.

Maybe he got mad.

I mean, we get mad.

Maybe he lost it for a moment, you know, and it was an accident.

If a person genuinely doesn't think that I feel something towards the people who put me in prison, then me saying it, it really has no validity in my eyes anyway, because come on, you know, either you think I did it or you don't.

And if you think that I did it, then you can assume because I'm a normal, you know, I'm just a regular.

I think what happens is people come expecting a monster and they don't find that.

Well, next they come expecting a victim.

And when they don't find that, they don't know what to think.