Aidan Walsh

Well, I felt that it was too late.

But I just felt that...

I have to make a decision.

And I always say this, Dr. Paul Gaffney, the psychologist I work with, he said a quote to me is, and he says, are you choosing unhappiness over uncertainty?

And when you think about it, it was true.

It took me a while to sort of go, what does that mean?

I was choosing unhappiness over the uncertainty of what was actually going to happen in my life if I stepped away.

And it was only then I realised, I'm afraid of that uncertainty.

I don't want to step away because I don't know what job I'm going to go into.

I don't know what role I'm going to go into.

I don't know where I'm going to get money.

I don't know what I'm going to do.

So all that uncertainty was stopping me from making the decision.

So I was choosing unhappiness over uncertainty.

And that was a real eye opener for me.

And see when I took the courage to actually say, no, I'm going to step away.

That's like, I've had the best days of my life since stepping away.

Like I've enjoyed life.

i do very little boxing i don't know boxing training i do a wee bit of coaching i do things they enjoy like i come to dublin like when i had boxed in dublin and i associated dublin with work i didn't they come to dublin here at dublin you know because it was reminding me of all the bad times all the negative times hotel rooms you know what you associated with work when i like drive to dublin and you're appreciated and you appreciate the people you're with you appreciate your surroundings you appreciate your achievements

it just it was a real eye-opener for me to do it and again it goes back to the word vulnerability like having the courage to be vulnerable and actually say I'm struggling and I actually don't want to do this anymore I think that in itself takes so much strength and we can talk about getting into the ring with Cubans or Russians