A.J. Daulerio

in sobriety is that I have to remember that I'm a bad memory for a lot of people. Like that, like the interactions that I had had with them kind of left a mark that isn't great.

And, and I mean, that's, that's, that is part of, of this life. I think that there's this natural auditing that kind of happens that I have to kind of get used to.

And, and I mean, that's, that's, that is part of, of this life. I think that there's this natural auditing that kind of happens that I have to kind of get used to.

And, and I mean, that's, that's, that is part of, of this life. I think that there's this natural auditing that kind of happens that I have to kind of get used to.

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

You know, when I was talking about that time when I came out of rehab in like early December and I remember sitting in my apartment in Brooklyn and, you know, I don't know if I was kind of just lonely or desperate or whatever, but I remember Googling, I'm 50-something days sober and I want to run into traffic. And I don't know what I was looking for, but I was hoping that something would come up.

You know, when I was talking about that time when I came out of rehab in like early December and I remember sitting in my apartment in Brooklyn and, you know, I don't know if I was kind of just lonely or desperate or whatever, but I remember Googling, I'm 50-something days sober and I want to run into traffic. And I don't know what I was looking for, but I was hoping that something would come up.

You know, when I was talking about that time when I came out of rehab in like early December and I remember sitting in my apartment in Brooklyn and, you know, I don't know if I was kind of just lonely or desperate or whatever, but I remember Googling, I'm 50-something days sober and I want to run into traffic. And I don't know what I was looking for, but I was hoping that something would come up.

But I mean, I was just like, I just got out of rehab and I feel really bad about myself still. And I don't know what to do exactly. I don't want to go to an AA meeting right now. You know, I don't want to, like, you know, I call a friend. Like, it was just, you know, kind of being adrift.

But I mean, I was just like, I just got out of rehab and I feel really bad about myself still. And I don't know what to do exactly. I don't want to go to an AA meeting right now. You know, I don't want to, like, you know, I call a friend. Like, it was just, you know, kind of being adrift.

But I mean, I was just like, I just got out of rehab and I feel really bad about myself still. And I don't know what to do exactly. I don't want to go to an AA meeting right now. You know, I don't want to, like, you know, I call a friend. Like, it was just, you know, kind of being adrift.

And, you know, the only things that came up, and I remember this specifically, were, you know, the suicide hotline number or advertisements for more rehabs, right? Right. And I guess that was the first sort of kernel that was there where it was just like, oh, if I can figure out a way to actually just get back into publishing again, maybe there's something there that I could actually get into.

And, you know, the only things that came up, and I remember this specifically, were, you know, the suicide hotline number or advertisements for more rehabs, right? Right. And I guess that was the first sort of kernel that was there where it was just like, oh, if I can figure out a way to actually just get back into publishing again, maybe there's something there that I could actually get into.

And, you know, the only things that came up, and I remember this specifically, were, you know, the suicide hotline number or advertisements for more rehabs, right? Right. And I guess that was the first sort of kernel that was there where it was just like, oh, if I can figure out a way to actually just get back into publishing again, maybe there's something there that I could actually get into.

100%, yeah. So it was 2018 when I started The Small Bow.

100%, yeah. So it was 2018 when I started The Small Bow.

100%, yeah. So it was 2018 when I started The Small Bow.

So I was about... two years sober, right? Yeah. And that is way too early to start a recovery site. I'm just letting people know that I'm 100% aware of that now, but that's like five years ago now. But yeah, I mean, it's kind of comical that I thought that was a great idea.