A.J. Daulerio

And, you know, just to kind of remember that, okay, well, they have a life that they can kind of be proud of now, too. Yeah. It was really important for me to hear that. And I always remember that when I go into any sort of meeting, we're just like, oh yeah, there are murderers here.

But it was so great because it was instant humility, right? And I think I got that. early on too, in like recovery, especially when, you know, I was in Florida and I'm in the thick of the Hogan trial and going to these meetings and thinking everyone in the room knew about this trial and all eyes are on me.

But it was so great because it was instant humility, right? And I think I got that. early on too, in like recovery, especially when, you know, I was in Florida and I'm in the thick of the Hogan trial and going to these meetings and thinking everyone in the room knew about this trial and all eyes are on me.

But it was so great because it was instant humility, right? And I think I got that. early on too, in like recovery, especially when, you know, I was in Florida and I'm in the thick of the Hogan trial and going to these meetings and thinking everyone in the room knew about this trial and all eyes are on me.

And just like, you know, here I was being brave and raising my hand at these meetings and boy, am I important. And Yeah, and it's hearing these people with real problems who had lost loved ones and lost jobs and houses and all those things, and just being like, yeah, I'm not really that interesting in this situation.

And just like, you know, here I was being brave and raising my hand at these meetings and boy, am I important. And Yeah, and it's hearing these people with real problems who had lost loved ones and lost jobs and houses and all those things, and just being like, yeah, I'm not really that interesting in this situation.

And just like, you know, here I was being brave and raising my hand at these meetings and boy, am I important. And Yeah, and it's hearing these people with real problems who had lost loved ones and lost jobs and houses and all those things, and just being like, yeah, I'm not really that interesting in this situation.

Sure. I mean, it kind of goes back to what we were talking about in those early days of me coming home from rehab. So this is 2015, December. And like I said, I was very much afraid. in a lot of ways about what I was supposed to be as a person now and what the holidays were going to look like, right? And Again, I remember feeling like so sad and desperate to be someplace else, right?

Sure. I mean, it kind of goes back to what we were talking about in those early days of me coming home from rehab. So this is 2015, December. And like I said, I was very much afraid. in a lot of ways about what I was supposed to be as a person now and what the holidays were going to look like, right? And Again, I remember feeling like so sad and desperate to be someplace else, right?

Sure. I mean, it kind of goes back to what we were talking about in those early days of me coming home from rehab. So this is 2015, December. And like I said, I was very much afraid. in a lot of ways about what I was supposed to be as a person now and what the holidays were going to look like, right? And Again, I remember feeling like so sad and desperate to be someplace else, right?

And wanting to kind of just like, you know, not be in my apartment, not be in my body, not be like, you know, in whatever sort of, you know, friend group I was in. I just didn't want to be there. But I also didn't want to be sober, right? But I also knew that I was staring down kind of this very important date, right, which is January 1st.

And wanting to kind of just like, you know, not be in my apartment, not be in my body, not be like, you know, in whatever sort of, you know, friend group I was in. I just didn't want to be there. But I also didn't want to be sober, right? But I also knew that I was staring down kind of this very important date, right, which is January 1st.

And wanting to kind of just like, you know, not be in my apartment, not be in my body, not be like, you know, in whatever sort of, you know, friend group I was in. I just didn't want to be there. But I also didn't want to be sober, right? But I also knew that I was staring down kind of this very important date, right, which is January 1st.

And I remember being so sad that I was never going to potentially have another New Year's that was fun again, right? Yeah. I mean, that kind of just hit me square in the jaw in that moment. And I was just like, God, I don't want to drink soda right now. I don't want to just go home and watch a movie or watch The Godfather or whatever. I don't know.

And I remember being so sad that I was never going to potentially have another New Year's that was fun again, right? Yeah. I mean, that kind of just hit me square in the jaw in that moment. And I was just like, God, I don't want to drink soda right now. I don't want to just go home and watch a movie or watch The Godfather or whatever. I don't know.

And I remember being so sad that I was never going to potentially have another New Year's that was fun again, right? Yeah. I mean, that kind of just hit me square in the jaw in that moment. And I was just like, God, I don't want to drink soda right now. I don't want to just go home and watch a movie or watch The Godfather or whatever. I don't know.

I mean, there was just so much stuff that I felt like completely on the sidelines about. And I was just like, this is not... the life I want. And I was like, yeah, I'm not ready to be sober. And I didn't relapse the next day, but I couldn't 100% kind of commit to something that I really wasn't ready for at that point.

I mean, there was just so much stuff that I felt like completely on the sidelines about. And I was just like, this is not... the life I want. And I was like, yeah, I'm not ready to be sober. And I didn't relapse the next day, but I couldn't 100% kind of commit to something that I really wasn't ready for at that point.

I mean, there was just so much stuff that I felt like completely on the sidelines about. And I was just like, this is not... the life I want. And I was like, yeah, I'm not ready to be sober. And I didn't relapse the next day, but I couldn't 100% kind of commit to something that I really wasn't ready for at that point.

And that was just like this moment where I was just like, I think most people that have come upon January 1st and thinking that their lives need to change in this sort of fashion and feel like failures if it doesn't happen. And that's a tough conversation to have with people. This is my attempt to basically have that conversation with people and say, yeah, you're fine, right? That's it, you know?