Alan Cumming

So I did that.

I went and my brother came with me.

We went to confront my dad.

And, you know, he was still living in the house that we'd grown up in and had been, you know, some terrible things had happened in it, violence and stuff.

And we told him we were going to see him.

We hadn't seen him for years at this point, years.

And it was terrifying.

I mean, we were both terrified.

And I thought my dad was going to hit me at one point.

I really thought he was going to hit me.

He had a stick, like a kind of, you know, not a walking, but like a staff that, you know, you use when you're hiking sort of thing.

And he had these boots.

And I remember his boots were making this, the little tacks on them, making this crunchy noise on the road as we were walking along.

And he was sort of whacking the stick against the side of his boot, this kind of thing.

And I...

A couple of the things I said.

Like I remember when I said, I want to ask you about your childhood.

I'm curious about if this kind of abuse happened to you and if there's some sort of lineage to this.

I'm trying to make sense of this.

And I was aware that I was trying not to do too much therapy speak, but obviously I was.