Alex Warren

And so he was at our house in a hospital bed in the downstairs bedroom.

And I remember the night before, the last conversation I ever had with him is he was puffed up on drugs and I was messing with them.

And, you know, I was like, dad, will you buy me a Ferrari?

And he was like, and he was saying yes to everything, you know?

And, um, it's weird to think about it back then and kind of be like, that was my goodbye was I was kind of fucking with him a little bit.

And yeah, I, all I know is like, you know, he, he died joking around with us saying yes to everything, you know, he didn't even bother to, you know, say no or mess with us back.

But

um he left us all notes and when he died the morning he he died my mom came into my room at like five in the morning i remember the time was actually 505 exact um and she said it's time to say goodbye to your dad he had left us these letters and we got to read those letters and um yeah i can say that's a pretty surreal moment to kind of like think about but i never knew wow i didn't even realize until i was like 13 or 14 then he was in a part of my life i think it was just a

a weird messed up joke.

I think I would make things up.

I'd be like, oh, he works for the FBI or like he, he like faked his death.

And I, yeah, it's pretty weird when I came to terms with the fact that he was gone.

I don't think my brain could.

At nine years old, and I think back, I really never think about this.

This is the first time in a long time I'm actually thinking about it.

I remember when he died, I was doing the stereotypical wake up, wake up.

He was dead in front of me.

I think it was just a whole moment of me trying to stop joking around.

I was nine, but I understood he was dead, but I didn't understand what that meant.

of course and so for a good good 20 minutes i had to i was slapping him i was shaking him begging him to wake up and then they wheeled him out of my driveway and the neighbors all looked around and i think that day i i um i was like i remember it so vividly but so blurry at the same time but yeah i i knew he was dead i didn't know what that meant until i was 13 or 14.