Ali Dore

They're going to die.

No.

I have a son yeah.

It's hard.

So I'm a millennial and I feel like millennials, we got cursed in the, in the sense of like how we were, how we were programmed to look at our bodies.

Like we, I was in the peak Misha Barton, like the zoom in.

you couldn't escape it and it was those it was that collarbone on all of them it was like that was the that was yeah i used to look at that i want a collarbone protruding i was like what the was that yeah it was it's actually funny because i when i was on below deck i actually there was an episode where i was feeling is one of our first episodes on our night off where everyone was getting in the hot tub and i was feeling insecure i was talking to my friend daisy um and i was feeling insecure about my body because the other girls were all teeny tiny petite

and I used to be really really skinny and I was normal I was a normal size at that point and a lot of people really

um like followed me from that episode and that has crossed my mind because i did have this connection with those people in that moment um it was like a moment of realism and um you know a lot of people do feel that feeling of insecurity and i was verbalizing it because like i said i wear my heart on my sleeve i always say what i think and feel um i'm super open and um

I have my own demons from, which you have obviously experienced as well, from the years before this.

So years before this, I went through my own experiences of an eating disorder.

And then recently I've lost a lot of weight in the last, after having a child in the last like two, three years, I'm getting a lot of comments on my body.

This is going to inflame all of that.

I'm getting a lot of people announcing, I'm unfollowing you because you've lost so much weight.

I'm like, okay, you can never win.

Like you could just never win.

And I don't know.

You know, I don't know what is... It's hard to say what is right and what is wrong and what is healthy and what is not when you're being praised when you're at your leanest.

And that's what I'm getting at the moment.

I'm at my leanest and I'm getting so much attention for it and I'm, you know, getting more collabs, more brand deals, more attention, more clothing stuff, more like all this stuff that I wasn't getting before and I'm like...