Alice Wong

I had some opioids earlier, but fun fact, they cause constipation, so I quit them and take Tylenol only when necessary.

I miss the fentanyl I had in the hospital, which was delightful, utterly delightful.

I called fentanyl, Fenty, and I said he was my boyfriend.

I miss Fenty very much.

It's been a lot.

My name is Ella.

Efficient, fast, and a very high quality.

Why not try me out with your own words?

So Heather is just the one I hate least.

It is robotic, clinical, and white.

I just tolerate her and I bet she tolerates me.

Ha ha ha.

Oh, see what I did there?

I typed ha ha ha to simulate actual laughter.

And while it works to some extent, it feels robotic and hollow to me.

I miss laughing and all the sounds I can make that make people laugh.

I wish I could laugh because isn't that also a collective experience?

I think that's the heart of it.

Being able to join with others and sharing an emotion the same way.

There is a device I could attach to my ventilator where it will potentially allow me to speak called the Passy Muir Valve.