Alix Earle
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264 appearances
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2 series
first heard Jan 2025
last heard 19 Apr
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Oh my God.
I feel... I feel bad for her, but I feel like I wish I had someone to kind of lean on in that moment. I feel like I was leaning on myself a lot of the time because I didn't want to stress anyone else out. And I was trying to look out for everyone else maybe but myself in the time. So I was just like, okay, we're just going to bottle this up and not talk about it. But I...
I wish that I could like go back and have her talk to someone about what was happening in that moment, because I just was like, OK, this is like life. This is normal. Like this is what's happening. Like whatever. We're not going to my house for the pregame.
I think it definitely made me have a lot of hatred towards the situation and it was it's just weird because I obviously felt a lot of emotion and I was super upset and I couldn't let that out kind of like there was nowhere for me to kind of go or talk to or like, I don't know, like I didn't really ever let that out. So I just would deal with these emotions within myself.
My high school teacher, because this was such a public affair, especially for anyone living locally in my town, you kind of knew who she was and knew the situation that had happened. My teacher in high school was talking about this governor's affair and said exactly what had happened, who it had happened with, and looked me in the eyes while this was going on in class.
And I remember my classmates looking at me and laughing because this was about my family and this is something he was literally teaching in history class because... I forget what the lesson was there, but I left school bawling my eyes out. I was so embarrassed. But this is so nice to be able to talk about this publicly because I really never have.
I mean, it's embarrassing, but I... I'm stubborn and I would never let people know that. So I would kind of put up that wall and I would kind of go the way of being very defensive. I'm like, OK, like, yeah. So like I looked like a hardo, but obviously that's not the way that I felt on the inside. And I even think now like that sometimes I can be a little bit like
brutal with things or brutally honest because I would just have this like wall up where I was just like these emotions are not gonna get to me um wow this is like really crazy right now I feel like I'm in a therapy session I'm like realizing things I didn't even realize before is there anything that you have recognized recently in your 20s that you're like fuck I've got to work on this because of the shit that you dealt with as a kid yes uh this has actually been a realization for me like the past
few months past six months past year whatever with relationships romantic relationships I've always been kind of one foot in one foot out like I've always been a little closed off and I've always been like wow I'm the girl who like doesn't care like I'm like to my friends it always was looked at as like oh she's really good with dealing with guys cuz like they can leave and she like doesn't care she's like okay next like whatever
But taking a step back and realizing that like I've actually never besides maybe my first like love and then he cheated on me and that went to shit. So like, of course, and then I'm going back to this like little shell of a human and I'm like putting this wall up.
I never allow myself in relationships to be like 100 percent committed and vulnerable and like all in because I'm so afraid of getting hurt like that.
I think especially the past few years, I've taken a step back and realized that my parents are just humans as well. And, you know, at the time, like, your parents are, like, your world. Like, you think they are these perfect people, but, like, they're experiencing life for the first time, too. Like, they fuck up. They make mistakes. People grow and people learn. Like, it's...
It's been reassuring and stuff to realize that just because someone makes a mistake, they're not evil. They're learning. It's their first time with marriage, with kids.
So with the divorce, I feel like the main thing and anyone whose parents are divorced, I feel like you can relate to this is
you feel like you don't have that like core family anymore like your Christmases are kind of split up and separated and like it's just not the same like you're not having family game nights like all together like your family like really to me was like my mom my dad and my sister and now that my family is so well blended and they get along so well like I get to do all these events in my life where it's like my mom my dad my little siblings and my stepmom and
it's a new feeling because it's a different type of family to me but like having my mom around with my dad like it's just that feeling is like the best feeling in the entire world and i'm so grateful that you know they were able to do that for us i know you are going to talk more about this on your own podcast hot mess because i think so many people are probably like
How did we go from here to here? I could talk about this for days. This is scratching the surface on what had happened. And there's so many stories to be told. There is a lot. that went on to get our family to the place that we are in today. Um, it was not always perfect.
And I think to anyone listening, that's going through this, know that like, it's okay if it's not perfect right now, because trust me, it was not for a while and it's still not at times, but that's the thing with social media is you sometimes don't know any of this. Like I'm posting my family hanging out and dancing and people are like, Oh wow, this is so great. They're such a blended family.
And I'm like, you don't even know the half of it.
It is so triggering to even hear you say that. Or when I was reading these comments, I was bawling my eyes out to my friends and they're like, hello, Alex, like this stuff does normally not get to you. But like from what we just talked about, I spent my childhood thinking this is basically the worst thing you could do to another human. So why the fuck would I do that?
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