Allegra

It was a sliding door.

So he slides it open and we go in there and there is nowhere to sit.

One of those cheap wall or door mirrors that you get at Walmart or Target.

Fair College dorm is on the wall.

A dresser is next to that.

And his bed takes up the whole room.

And that's it.

That was the first time the hairs on the back of my neck kind of stood up.

My first inkling of like, maybe I'm not okay here.

I had that sense of feeling trapped.

And knowing what I know now about Justin, I feel like that was by design.

But nothing has happened and he's been so conversational and fun and playful.

So I kind of pushed past that first little red flag.

We sit down on the bed and we start talking and then he starts to make his move.

He started kissing me and filling me up, which I was fine with.

A kiss is not sex.

That wasn't pushing my limits at all.

But then as he started to undress me, it was clear that he was looking for something more.

And eventually he wore me down into allowing him to perform oral sex on me.

I acquiesced because he seemed into it and not because that was something that I actually wanted or was enthusiastic about.