Allison Holker

And that's looking back on things like that is when I realized that when he was checked out at the times I thought he was like recouping his energy, he was really in his thoughts in a dark place.

I really believe that he was such, because I don't say these things to tear him apart. He was such a beautiful individual, but so beautiful in his heart that he never wanted anyone ever to feel his pain. He never wanted that for people. He always wanted to be someone that they could look to and lean to at any given moment that he could just pour out to them. And I really believe that

I really believe that he was such, because I don't say these things to tear him apart. He was such a beautiful individual, but so beautiful in his heart that he never wanted anyone ever to feel his pain. He never wanted that for people. He always wanted to be someone that they could look to and lean to at any given moment that he could just pour out to them. And I really believe that

I really believe that he was such, because I don't say these things to tear him apart. He was such a beautiful individual, but so beautiful in his heart that he never wanted anyone ever to feel his pain. He never wanted that for people. He always wanted to be someone that they could look to and lean to at any given moment that he could just pour out to them. And I really believe that

He loved people so much. Because I've also had people ask me, were people not pouring into him? And I'm like, this man was loved by our family, by his family, by all of his friends. He was, oh, he was reveled. People loved him. Everyone idolized him and looked up to him and could lean on him and trusted him.

He loved people so much. Because I've also had people ask me, were people not pouring into him? And I'm like, this man was loved by our family, by his family, by all of his friends. He was, oh, he was reveled. People loved him. Everyone idolized him and looked up to him and could lean on him and trusted him.

He loved people so much. Because I've also had people ask me, were people not pouring into him? And I'm like, this man was loved by our family, by his family, by all of his friends. He was, oh, he was reveled. People loved him. Everyone idolized him and looked up to him and could lean on him and trusted him.

But I sometimes think he doubted himself so much if he deserved that love because he was receiving so much of it that he thought he had to outpour it, just give it to as many people as I can. To make him almost convince himself maybe that would make him deserve the love. That, yeah, you have to learn for yourself to understand that you deserve, you deserve so much love for who you are.

But I sometimes think he doubted himself so much if he deserved that love because he was receiving so much of it that he thought he had to outpour it, just give it to as many people as I can. To make him almost convince himself maybe that would make him deserve the love. That, yeah, you have to learn for yourself to understand that you deserve, you deserve so much love for who you are.

But I sometimes think he doubted himself so much if he deserved that love because he was receiving so much of it that he thought he had to outpour it, just give it to as many people as I can. To make him almost convince himself maybe that would make him deserve the love. That, yeah, you have to learn for yourself to understand that you deserve, you deserve so much love for who you are.

And you don't have to earn any of it. You can just receive it.

And you don't have to earn any of it. You can just receive it.

And you don't have to earn any of it. You can just receive it.

And I think he started towards the end having a little bit of cracks that he was getting a little bit low. And I think him seeing that himself, when people would start asking, are you okay? Are you okay today? It would trigger him. And he would get really upset when you asked him that because he always thought he could wear this face and convince everyone he was okay.

And I think he started towards the end having a little bit of cracks that he was getting a little bit low. And I think him seeing that himself, when people would start asking, are you okay? Are you okay today? It would trigger him. And he would get really upset when you asked him that because he always thought he could wear this face and convince everyone he was okay.

And I think he started towards the end having a little bit of cracks that he was getting a little bit low. And I think him seeing that himself, when people would start asking, are you okay? Are you okay today? It would trigger him. And he would get really upset when you asked him that because he always thought he could wear this face and convince everyone he was okay.

And that's another thing that we started to notice is if you asked him if he was okay, it was very triggering to him. It was like, yes, I'm okay, of course I'm okay. And so I think those little things starting to pour out into our children or into me or into people starting to see that, Oh, he's maybe not okay today.

And that's another thing that we started to notice is if you asked him if he was okay, it was very triggering to him. It was like, yes, I'm okay, of course I'm okay. And so I think those little things starting to pour out into our children or into me or into people starting to see that, Oh, he's maybe not okay today.

And that's another thing that we started to notice is if you asked him if he was okay, it was very triggering to him. It was like, yes, I'm okay, of course I'm okay. And so I think those little things starting to pour out into our children or into me or into people starting to see that, Oh, he's maybe not okay today.

I think him seeing how people react to that maybe or how they might react to it started concerning him.