Allison Holker

And then at the very end, I held onto one of the faces and it said, I'm so sorry. And I love you so much. I'm sorry. And Steven's face faded away. And then we both took a nap. It was the first time I had slept. And I think maybe one of the first times she had slept since everything had happened. And I woke up and I felt a lot more settled.

I wasn't fully healed or anything like that, but I felt settled. that he was watching over us and looking out for us.

I wasn't fully healed or anything like that, but I felt settled. that he was watching over us and looking out for us.

I wasn't fully healed or anything like that, but I felt settled. that he was watching over us and looking out for us.

Yes. There's been moments of Stephen visiting both Wesley and I multiple times. He still visits us and still talks with us. And, you know, there's been times though, it's been really beautiful and then there's times it's been a little scary. But I know we feel him and when we need him, we go talk to him.

Yes. There's been moments of Stephen visiting both Wesley and I multiple times. He still visits us and still talks with us. And, you know, there's been times though, it's been really beautiful and then there's times it's been a little scary. But I know we feel him and when we need him, we go talk to him.

Yes. There's been moments of Stephen visiting both Wesley and I multiple times. He still visits us and still talks with us. And, you know, there's been times though, it's been really beautiful and then there's times it's been a little scary. But I know we feel him and when we need him, we go talk to him.

And then there's also been unfortunate times we've been like, please give us some space on the flip side of that. And there's been times that we've been like, I would love to talk with you. I'd love to see you. I'd love to speak with you. But we know that he's watching over our family. I know that Steven always loved us and always wanted to protect us.

And then there's also been unfortunate times we've been like, please give us some space on the flip side of that. And there's been times that we've been like, I would love to talk with you. I'd love to see you. I'd love to speak with you. But we know that he's watching over our family. I know that Steven always loved us and always wanted to protect us.

And then there's also been unfortunate times we've been like, please give us some space on the flip side of that. And there's been times that we've been like, I would love to talk with you. I'd love to see you. I'd love to speak with you. But we know that he's watching over our family. I know that Steven always loved us and always wanted to protect us.

And in whatever way in his mind, he thought he was doing that. And I'll never fully comprehend and I'll never fully understand that that was his choice. And I don't know if I'll ever fully be able to forgive him, not for me, because I forgave him for me, but for my children that that was the choice he did. But in his heart of hearts, he thought that he made the right choice.

And in whatever way in his mind, he thought he was doing that. And I'll never fully comprehend and I'll never fully understand that that was his choice. And I don't know if I'll ever fully be able to forgive him, not for me, because I forgave him for me, but for my children that that was the choice he did. But in his heart of hearts, he thought that he made the right choice.

And in whatever way in his mind, he thought he was doing that. And I'll never fully comprehend and I'll never fully understand that that was his choice. And I don't know if I'll ever fully be able to forgive him, not for me, because I forgave him for me, but for my children that that was the choice he did. But in his heart of hearts, he thought that he made the right choice.

And my job now as the parent to these beautiful children is for them to know that this is not the way out. There are other avenues. There is therapy. There is help. There is talking to the right individuals. There's a support team around you that will help navigate the space with you. That the choice that he made is not the choice that we will make moving forward.

And my job now as the parent to these beautiful children is for them to know that this is not the way out. There are other avenues. There is therapy. There is help. There is talking to the right individuals. There's a support team around you that will help navigate the space with you. That the choice that he made is not the choice that we will make moving forward.

And my job now as the parent to these beautiful children is for them to know that this is not the way out. There are other avenues. There is therapy. There is help. There is talking to the right individuals. There's a support team around you that will help navigate the space with you. That the choice that he made is not the choice that we will make moving forward.

I always grew up in a religion with my family that I have so much respect for, but I had left it for a few years. And then I really wanted to go on my own journey of faith. And I was so blessed to find the Mosaic Church with Erwin McManus. He's my pastor and Beck and Joe. I absolutely adore them. And I've been going to that church now for years. I don't know, well over eight, nine years.

I always grew up in a religion with my family that I have so much respect for, but I had left it for a few years. And then I really wanted to go on my own journey of faith. And I was so blessed to find the Mosaic Church with Erwin McManus. He's my pastor and Beck and Joe. I absolutely adore them. And I've been going to that church now for years. I don't know, well over eight, nine years.

I always grew up in a religion with my family that I have so much respect for, but I had left it for a few years. And then I really wanted to go on my own journey of faith. And I was so blessed to find the Mosaic Church with Erwin McManus. He's my pastor and Beck and Joe. I absolutely adore them. And I've been going to that church now for years. I don't know, well over eight, nine years.

I absolutely adore it. They're my people. And I had brought Steven with me a couple of times and he kind of got into it. And Steven, when he was growing up, had bounced around a couple of different faiths with his family. And then he would go with me to the Mosaic Church. I think Stephen would say he was more of a spiritual person, more than a religious person.