Alyssa Grenfell

what God wants me to do, I'm often kind of living in a way that is reacting to, I just want to do the opposite of Mormonism, even though that's still kind of living my life according to Mormonism. It's just now I'm living the opposite way instead of kind of somewhere in the middle of this, like, what I really want kind of idea that people have.

what God wants me to do, I'm often kind of living in a way that is reacting to, I just want to do the opposite of Mormonism, even though that's still kind of living my life according to Mormonism. It's just now I'm living the opposite way instead of kind of somewhere in the middle of this, like, what I really want kind of idea that people have.

what God wants me to do, I'm often kind of living in a way that is reacting to, I just want to do the opposite of Mormonism, even though that's still kind of living my life according to Mormonism. It's just now I'm living the opposite way instead of kind of somewhere in the middle of this, like, what I really want kind of idea that people have.

Yeah, I think initially it was very difficult and even kind of admitting it to myself was really difficult. Like you mentioned earlier, I had all of these experiences kind of culminate where, for example, I had a really strong what I felt like was an answer from God that I was going to go on my Mormon mission to Italy.

Yeah, I think initially it was very difficult and even kind of admitting it to myself was really difficult. Like you mentioned earlier, I had all of these experiences kind of culminate where, for example, I had a really strong what I felt like was an answer from God that I was going to go on my Mormon mission to Italy.

Yeah, I think initially it was very difficult and even kind of admitting it to myself was really difficult. Like you mentioned earlier, I had all of these experiences kind of culminate where, for example, I had a really strong what I felt like was an answer from God that I was going to go on my Mormon mission to Italy.

And I wrote it in my journal and I wrote, you know, I know I'll go to Italy as sure as I know God lives. And it felt like a little testimony, my claim to faith on the topic. And when I opened my mission call, it was to Denver, Colorado, not Italy. And I still served a full Mormon mission. I still went to Denver, Colorado. I still was in the church for years after that.

And I wrote it in my journal and I wrote, you know, I know I'll go to Italy as sure as I know God lives. And it felt like a little testimony, my claim to faith on the topic. And when I opened my mission call, it was to Denver, Colorado, not Italy. And I still served a full Mormon mission. I still went to Denver, Colorado. I still was in the church for years after that.

And I wrote it in my journal and I wrote, you know, I know I'll go to Italy as sure as I know God lives. And it felt like a little testimony, my claim to faith on the topic. And when I opened my mission call, it was to Denver, Colorado, not Italy. And I still served a full Mormon mission. I still went to Denver, Colorado. I still was in the church for years after that.

But I think that is kind of the easiest to encapsulate example of these moments that kind of hit me over and over again where I would...

But I think that is kind of the easiest to encapsulate example of these moments that kind of hit me over and over again where I would...

But I think that is kind of the easiest to encapsulate example of these moments that kind of hit me over and over again where I would...

have these really strong feelings, major revelations that I was using to kind of walk through life, only to realize that they were either wrong or that if I had made my own decisions about my own life without consulting God, I probably would have chosen better than, quote, God was choosing for me. So as I kind of came to that realization over years and years later,

have these really strong feelings, major revelations that I was using to kind of walk through life, only to realize that they were either wrong or that if I had made my own decisions about my own life without consulting God, I probably would have chosen better than, quote, God was choosing for me. So as I kind of came to that realization over years and years later,

have these really strong feelings, major revelations that I was using to kind of walk through life, only to realize that they were either wrong or that if I had made my own decisions about my own life without consulting God, I probably would have chosen better than, quote, God was choosing for me. So as I kind of came to that realization over years and years later,

my first year teaching, my dad had given me a blessing that I was meant to be a teacher and that, of course, I'm going to trust this blessing above all else. I didn't pursue any other career paths. And then my first year as a teacher, I realized I absolutely hated it and was not cut out for it. And it was giving me a lot of mental health issues.

my first year teaching, my dad had given me a blessing that I was meant to be a teacher and that, of course, I'm going to trust this blessing above all else. I didn't pursue any other career paths. And then my first year as a teacher, I realized I absolutely hated it and was not cut out for it. And it was giving me a lot of mental health issues.

my first year teaching, my dad had given me a blessing that I was meant to be a teacher and that, of course, I'm going to trust this blessing above all else. I didn't pursue any other career paths. And then my first year as a teacher, I realized I absolutely hated it and was not cut out for it. And it was giving me a lot of mental health issues.

About halfway through the school year, broke to my husband, hey, I think I might not believe in this anymore. After a lot of conversations, we both decided that we wanted to leave together after reading a lot of church history for him, after lots of conversations, like I said. So it was really helpful.

About halfway through the school year, broke to my husband, hey, I think I might not believe in this anymore. After a lot of conversations, we both decided that we wanted to leave together after reading a lot of church history for him, after lots of conversations, like I said. So it was really helpful.