Amanda Knox

But I don't know. Maybe I'm a masochist because I always feel like there's something to gain from pain.

But I don't know. Maybe I'm a masochist because I always feel like there's something to gain from pain.

You know what's fucked up though?

You know what's fucked up though?

You know what's fucked up though?

I trust pain more than I trust joy. Because when I'm going through something painful, I know what that is and I know how to confront it. When I'm going through joy, I'm afraid that something bad is going to happen to me.

I trust pain more than I trust joy. Because when I'm going through something painful, I know what that is and I know how to confront it. When I'm going through joy, I'm afraid that something bad is going to happen to me.

I trust pain more than I trust joy. Because when I'm going through something painful, I know what that is and I know how to confront it. When I'm going through joy, I'm afraid that something bad is going to happen to me.

And so like, I don't know, like a part of me is like always is trying to see like the yin yang of it all, like the good that's embedded in the bad, but then afraid of the bad that's embedded in the good. Like that's what... And, you know, and that's a reality.

And so like, I don't know, like a part of me is like always is trying to see like the yin yang of it all, like the good that's embedded in the bad, but then afraid of the bad that's embedded in the good. Like that's what... And, you know, and that's a reality.

And so like, I don't know, like a part of me is like always is trying to see like the yin yang of it all, like the good that's embedded in the bad, but then afraid of the bad that's embedded in the good. Like that's what... And, you know, and that's a reality.

Like, you know, the more that you now that I have the privilege of being a mom, I know that one day, you know, like if something were to happen to my kids, I would be all the more fucking dead, like all the more pain in my life. Like if I'd never had kids, I wouldn't I wouldn't have the opportunity to experience a potential pain that would be utterly devastating. And so like that's devastating.

Like, you know, the more that you now that I have the privilege of being a mom, I know that one day, you know, like if something were to happen to my kids, I would be all the more fucking dead, like all the more pain in my life. Like if I'd never had kids, I wouldn't I wouldn't have the opportunity to experience a potential pain that would be utterly devastating. And so like that's devastating.

Like, you know, the more that you now that I have the privilege of being a mom, I know that one day, you know, like if something were to happen to my kids, I would be all the more fucking dead, like all the more pain in my life. Like if I'd never had kids, I wouldn't I wouldn't have the opportunity to experience a potential pain that would be utterly devastating. And so like that's devastating.

That's where that play goes in my head. And I just wonder if it's a trauma response where like I'm afraid of good things happening.

That's where that play goes in my head. And I just wonder if it's a trauma response where like I'm afraid of good things happening.

That's where that play goes in my head. And I just wonder if it's a trauma response where like I'm afraid of good things happening.

I need to get rid of that. I need to lose this.

I need to get rid of that. I need to lose this.

I need to get rid of that. I need to lose this.