Amanda

The first thing I want to say is that we have no plan for today.

We are in that time.

And I don't know, some of you might be able to relate to this where any sort of intentionality or long term planning, whatever creativity requires, which is like no hyper vigilance and sitting calmly is not available to us today.

At this time, we're constantly in response mode and I'm talking about what's going on in the country.

Every morning feels like it's just putting out fires and we are not planning a lot.

It's a big ask in this moment, but that is a beautiful description of how it feels.

And I think also fear being matched with all of that, it almost makes you a little bit dissociated.

Like you forget what you were supposed to talk about yesterday or you forget.

It just feels like a constant landing freshly.

I was talking to our son's dear friend,

And I asked how they had been feeling yesterday.

And they said, I don't remember who I was before now.

I was like, wow, that's a really good description of how it feels to be right now.

So what we thought we would do is just still show up and just talk about how we are feeling and what we are doing to stay engaged and to also maintain any level of sanity if we are in this moment.

And I think that that's got to be something to do that because-

part of how we're feeling is sort of the plan from the other side, right?

To just keep things so chaotic and move and the moving target of everything changing every single day that we are unable to respond with any sort of consistency.

But I will tell you this, this is one of my favorite stories in the whole world.

And obviously, you know who tells the story because the only podcast I ever listened to is- Ram Dass.

And I've listened to every single episode.