Amelia Lester

those containments in my life.

Like I'm always chasing windows of time where I can just do one thing and not look at all the other things, but it never quite works.

And I was actually thinking not to bang on about this too much, but I'm going to bang on about it more.

When I was at Bad Bunny on Saturday night and I was trying very hard to live in the moment and I did.

Because I was dancing, I was having a great time, but he plays for like two hours, which is quite a long time.

I picked up my phone at some point towards the end of it and there were news alerts about obviously the world events that had happened while I was there.

My daughter was trying to call me from where she was, which seems kind of important.

I was also getting some messages from a friend about another friend of ours with a health issue.

Like I was pulled out of that moment like that.

Whereas if I was Carolyn Bessette, and let's face it, I could be.

Oh, my God.

That would have all caught up with me when I walked in the door and pressed play on my answering machine.

Do you know what I mean?

And that allowed you to be fully in what you were in.

Oh, yes, outside.

I think we have romanticised it in a way that we're like and we were all so attentive to everything all the time.

I don't think that's true.

We were still gossiping, bored, reading gossip magazines, doing like, you know, we were still distracting ourselves with plenty of things.

But there was no question, you know, that you were where you were.

You know, your focus had to be in one particular place or you were daydreaming.