Amika Moda

And she ran away from almost all those programs.

When she was 16, she ran away pregnant and had a baby boy named Milo.

And when Milo was a few weeks old, something happened that would shift Amika from the kind of wild lifestyle she had felt drawn to, something that would actually keep her completely and totally sober for more than a decade.

She heard a friend talking about something called a midwife.

Do you think there's a connection between your mom's interest and women's control over their bodies and your being drawn to midwifery?

So Amika, who was never one for a formal education, started to seek out mentors and elders.

She started as an apprentice and became a full-fledged midwife when she was in her early 20s, driving out to women's houses day and night to catch babies.

She was on call 24 hours a day for six years.

She had two more kids while she was a midwife, Soleil and Blossom.

She worked with her own babies on her lap.

It was an intense lifestyle, and it suited her needs.

Sounds parallel to...

To being on drugs.

Midwifing was amazing and fulfilling in so many ways for so many years.

And then Amika made this huge, life-changing decision.

I walked away from what I loved.

Why did you walk away from what you loved?

It was too demanding for a mother with three kids, so she left it.

And when she quit her job and moved with her husband and three kids to this remote mountain area in California, that's when things started to unravel.

The story continues right after this break.