Amika Mota

And, you know, the deputies just kind of tossed me around.

I was pushed into the shower and so felt my knees, and

because I couldn't stand.

I remember the shower coming on.

I had chunks of glass still stuck in my scalp, and as I was showering, those chunks were coming out of my hand.

So that moment of showering was also this intense... I just, I was realizing all of it moment by moment.

And isolation.

It was room 13.

I won't forget that.

The wing I was in, I could hear people screaming through the vents.

My body was just in so much pain that it was, you know, on a thin mat, curled up with my wool blanket and just shivering inside.

You know, like, I couldn't imagine looking at my little six-year-old that was already, like, could not make sense of where I was or why her mom was sitting in a box like that.

And then, like...

I mean, I would, like, envision her, like, trying to touch me or, you know, like, no, that shit was not going to happen.

Like, it felt more harmful.

Like, I would be harming them more.

Than not seeing them.

There was one, this one was, like, when I got sentenced.

That was intense to read.

All right.