Anderson Cooper

She wanted to continue giving me that message.

And it kept coming to me too, again and again and again.

that to be a warrior for optimism in your life means that you have to kind of travel through many a buzzsaw.

And so many of the lessons from grieving her came in the form of like, go get through it, even though she was unable to.

With the pain is joy.

And the ache there is that she gave up on the joy for one day.

And I feel this a lot about people that have committed suicide, that they might have been one day away because moods are so up and down.

There's a good chance that terrible day might be followed by a day where you laugh at yourself for how seriously you took it all the day before.

And I wish I'd been old enough to have that conversation with Kathy.

But time was not Kathy's friend.

Had she been born later, there would have been a diagnosis.

There would have been a path for her.

But if you subscribe to that idea, there's a paper-thin wall between you and the person that you lost.

Our relationship has never been better.

I really feel it.

I really feel it.

And I feel like my mom had to exit the stage for it to truly happen.

I wish I'd been able to talk to my mom about it, but I don't think that ever was going to happen.

That was how much that loss remained untold.

unmet with her.