Andrea Gibson

And so that's why initially I couldn't say this is just a disease.

It was also medicine.

And I'm trying to think if there are any words, but

Whenever I tried to think about it, it almost, it escaped, it runs away.

It runs away in my thoughts.

But it's an experience, a sensory experience and an emotional experience of being absolutely loved and feeling that I am immensely and completely loved every moment of my life and always have been.

And everyone I have ever encountered has been too.

And I think that was the thing that was so healing.

Because when you have trauma in your history, what it does is it sort of undoes your sense of being unconditionally loved.

when this came in, this knowing, all of a sudden I knew that I was unconditionally loved and it almost felt like it just washed through me and started immediately healing all these wounds.

And then in that sense of feeling just unconditionally loved, it was so easy to unconditionally love everyone I was around.

Yeah.

Yeah, he's rad.

So they have changed so much over the years.

You know, even when I was really angry and angry at the church and coming out.

And I wrote about it once.

I said I had to kill my own God to fall in love for the first time.

That's what it felt like.

I'm like, I'm going to kill my God so I can love this woman.

And so I sort of let I didn't identify as a Christian.