Andrea Gibson

Oh yeah.

Yes.

But also my personality.

Like when I got diagnosed, I felt like all of a sudden there was a separation where I was watching Andrea walk around

And I thought that character is entertaining and really funny.

And I became so much funnier because I'm almost watching myself from a distance.

And I was so entertained by the personality of Andrea.

And I was like, what a weirdo.

And yeah, so just watching personality and humor and laughing and then also the grief.

And that's something that I'm just right now, like really diving into the holiness of, of wow.

Wow.

And I think that I had always been afraid that it would destroy me, that it would be too much.

And it isn't too much, but it's a lot and it's precious because it's how much I love this world.

It's how much I love you.

everyone in it.

I have a friend that's a squirrel.

It's how much I love the squirrel.

I even love the birds that have decided to make their nest in my basketball hoop.

And so I can't play right now and I desperately want to play.

I love them too.