Andrea Gibson

It used to mean something very different to me. It used to mean just going out and doing everything and seeing everyone and having every conversation. But for me, it means opening my heart to gratitude, opening my heart to love and mostly being present. Like for right now, you know, I'm sitting here, nothing in my body feels bad. Like if somebody told me I had cancer, I'd say, no, no way.

It used to mean something very different to me. It used to mean just going out and doing everything and seeing everyone and having every conversation. But for me, it means opening my heart to gratitude, opening my heart to love and mostly being present. Like for right now, you know, I'm sitting here, nothing in my body feels bad. Like if somebody told me I had cancer, I'd say, no, no way.

It used to mean something very different to me. It used to mean just going out and doing everything and seeing everyone and having every conversation. But for me, it means opening my heart to gratitude, opening my heart to love and mostly being present. Like for right now, you know, I'm sitting here, nothing in my body feels bad. Like if somebody told me I had cancer, I'd say, no, no way.

Nothing in my body feels bad. And so that is life like that right now in this little second, this is my entire lifespan in this moment. And I can fill it with worry thoughts. I can fill it with just stories about what's unfair. I refuse to do that to my life.

Nothing in my body feels bad. And so that is life like that right now in this little second, this is my entire lifespan in this moment. And I can fill it with worry thoughts. I can fill it with just stories about what's unfair. I refuse to do that to my life.

Nothing in my body feels bad. And so that is life like that right now in this little second, this is my entire lifespan in this moment. And I can fill it with worry thoughts. I can fill it with just stories about what's unfair. I refuse to do that to my life.

I refuse to spend the end of my life, no matter how much time it is, whether it's two months or it's 20 years, I refuse to spend it not loving my life. And that doesn't mean not feeling. My therapist taught me years ago that You can't shut yourself off to grief without also shutting yourself off to joy. You have to think of it like a kink in the hose. You stop the flow of sadness.

I refuse to spend the end of my life, no matter how much time it is, whether it's two months or it's 20 years, I refuse to spend it not loving my life. And that doesn't mean not feeling. My therapist taught me years ago that You can't shut yourself off to grief without also shutting yourself off to joy. You have to think of it like a kink in the hose. You stop the flow of sadness.

I refuse to spend the end of my life, no matter how much time it is, whether it's two months or it's 20 years, I refuse to spend it not loving my life. And that doesn't mean not feeling. My therapist taught me years ago that You can't shut yourself off to grief without also shutting yourself off to joy. You have to think of it like a kink in the hose. You stop the flow of sadness.

You stop the flow of happiness at the same time. So I'm crying about twice an hour and then I'm bursting into laughter. So it's feeling it all to be open to this moment and to the aliveness of this moment.

You stop the flow of happiness at the same time. So I'm crying about twice an hour and then I'm bursting into laughter. So it's feeling it all to be open to this moment and to the aliveness of this moment.

You stop the flow of happiness at the same time. So I'm crying about twice an hour and then I'm bursting into laughter. So it's feeling it all to be open to this moment and to the aliveness of this moment.

I try to think about God, but that never works.

I try to think about God, but that never works.

I try to think about God, but that never works.

I try to think about God. I try to sit down and write about God, and it just never happens. I used to think God or the divine or source or whatever you want to call it, the consciousness within us all. I don't even have a name, but I guess I use God easily these days. which I, which I didn't before, but is the most vital thing in my life.

I try to think about God. I try to sit down and write about God, and it just never happens. I used to think God or the divine or source or whatever you want to call it, the consciousness within us all. I don't even have a name, but I guess I use God easily these days. which I, which I didn't before, but is the most vital thing in my life.

I try to think about God. I try to sit down and write about God, and it just never happens. I used to think God or the divine or source or whatever you want to call it, the consciousness within us all. I don't even have a name, but I guess I use God easily these days. which I, which I didn't before, but is the most vital thing in my life.

And when I was having the experience right after I got diagnosed, I had thought what the biggest things were, were, you know, human love and, and all of, all of that human connection. And that's enormous and that's part of it, but it is the most important thing. thing in my life. It is the most eternal.

And when I was having the experience right after I got diagnosed, I had thought what the biggest things were, were, you know, human love and, and all of, all of that human connection. And that's enormous and that's part of it, but it is the most important thing. thing in my life. It is the most eternal.