Andrea Gunning

But Jess wants Saskia to take this experience of learning to trust us and translate it into trusting others again in her everyday life.

In addition to Marisa, Saskia has her friends, the ones you've heard from throughout the season.

But it hasn't always felt easy to open up to them.

Before Mike, Saskia was the silly, bubbly one in her friend group, no matter what she was going through on the inside.

But connection is a two-way street.

Sometimes her friends haven't known the best way to show up for Saskia, if they should or could talk about what happened.

When we were in Maryland, I brought that up with Saskia's friend Heather.

There's also the guilt her friends feel about what happened to Saskia.

Looking back now, knowing what Mike was doing, Heather feels a lot of anger at herself.

Remember, she was the friend that told Saskia to go through with the wedding after the first time Saskia saw something on Mike's laptop.

It's uncomfortable to look back and wonder if you could have done anything differently.

That guilt can make it hard to talk about what happened.

But there's one more reason I think these friends don't talk about what Saskia went through.

It's the reason why, for years, there weren't stories like this one out there.

And it's a big part of why it took so long for men like Jeffrey Epstein, Harvey Weinstein, and Bill Cosby to be held accountable.

We've all been taught not to talk about rape.

It's too violent, too gross, something meant to be kept private, especially when it's perpetrated by a good guy, a powerful guy, or a partner.

And in Saskia's case, there's digital evidence

The photos and videos of her rape that will live on on the Internet forever.

It's a horrific, ongoing part of Mike's crimes, one that is hard for anyone to talk about, even Saskia.