Andrew Glaze

But for me, like,

I'll get really bad insomnia and like my heart rate will get like kind of high and I'll just like, I won't be able to relax.

Um, and I will try to like tell myself it's okay, but like, I just, my body will not like shut off.

And it's, it's, it's, it's, it's a really terrible feeling.

Um, but I know everybody has different, different feelings like that.

Also, like

You mix that with not sleeping a lot because a lot of times at the fire station, you know, we'll go several days with very minimal sleep.

I work a 48 hour shift.

So if we're up all night, both nights, sometimes I'll come home with maybe, you know, an hour or two of sleep over two days.

You mix that with some PTSD symptoms and you start kind of feeling, you start having thoughts in your head that you know aren't okay, you know?

Right.

And like, at least I have the knowledge to know

Andy, you're experiencing this.

These aren't normal thoughts.

This is because you haven't had enough sleep.

You're having these symptoms.

But what a lot of firefighters, police, and military do is they go, oh, well, I'm going to go mix drugs and alcohol into that to make me feel better temporarily.

And then that's a cocktail that's really hard to diffuse.

And-

Luckily I've, I haven't had that issue because I don't drink or do drugs, but, um, I, I see it a lot and it, and it's, it's, it's not such a good thing.