Ange

And it's okay if I don't have it figured out. My brain is like, I have to have it figured out. Otherwise there's no meaning to it and nothing good can come of it. Yeah, I think I've been so radically victim mentality my whole life, which is a good thing. Victim mentality is the worst thing you can do for yourself if you yield to the victim voice that speaks in your head.

And it's okay if I don't have it figured out. My brain is like, I have to have it figured out. Otherwise there's no meaning to it and nothing good can come of it. Yeah, I think I've been so radically victim mentality my whole life, which is a good thing. Victim mentality is the worst thing you can do for yourself if you yield to the victim voice that speaks in your head.

You are giving in to lies like you really are because we're not victims. But I think for a long time I've gaslit myself into being like, You can't be a victim. You can't be a victim. You can't be a victim. And I feel like God is inviting me into a really sweet season of just being like, You're not a victim.

You are giving in to lies like you really are because we're not victims. But I think for a long time I've gaslit myself into being like, You can't be a victim. You can't be a victim. You can't be a victim. And I feel like God is inviting me into a really sweet season of just being like, You're not a victim.

You're not a victim if you choose to, you know, lean into things that have gone wrong or have hurt. So, yeah, I think.

You're not a victim if you choose to, you know, lean into things that have gone wrong or have hurt. So, yeah, I think.

Yeah, I know. It's so crazy. I think... Can you just text her and tell her that we're okay? Sorry, Angie's mom? It's my mom. Call, answer me.

Yeah, I know. It's so crazy. I think... Can you just text her and tell her that we're okay? Sorry, Angie's mom? It's my mom. Call, answer me.

Bye, Ma. But, yeah, it's, like, so weird. It's... It's just a weird time. It's a beautiful time. Does anybody else feel that way? It's a beautiful time. I'm happier than ever. I really am. And I'm also just like, I don't know. Like, I don't know. It's the best time of my entire life. And

Bye, Ma. But, yeah, it's, like, so weird. It's... It's just a weird time. It's a beautiful time. Does anybody else feel that way? It's a beautiful time. I'm happier than ever. I really am. And I'm also just like, I don't know. Like, I don't know. It's the best time of my entire life. And

yeah I just there's like so many things on my heart and I'm sick too so you get ready for the floodgates but it's just like mostly you're dealing with shame right now like yeah I'm dealing with shame I'm dealing just like with past stuff I'm like yeah I don't know I think I'm dealing with stuff of like I guess it's weird that part of me is like, thank you.

yeah I just there's like so many things on my heart and I'm sick too so you get ready for the floodgates but it's just like mostly you're dealing with shame right now like yeah I'm dealing with shame I'm dealing just like with past stuff I'm like yeah I don't know I think I'm dealing with stuff of like I guess it's weird that part of me is like, thank you.

Part of me is like so weird that I've never, you realize that so much of like why you do the things you do is connected to just like your whole life and your childhood and I think what weighs on me a lot is like, just like a lack of probably a father's voice. And yeah, I've gone my whole life being able to like, just gaslight myself into being like, nothing bad has ever happened to you.

Part of me is like so weird that I've never, you realize that so much of like why you do the things you do is connected to just like your whole life and your childhood and I think what weighs on me a lot is like, just like a lack of probably a father's voice. And yeah, I've gone my whole life being able to like, just gaslight myself into being like, nothing bad has ever happened to you.

It's all your fault. Like, I remember even The way I used to tell my testimony, I would be like, it was me. I was such a rebellious kid. Like, I was a bad kid. And I'm just like, why would I talk about myself like that?

It's all your fault. Like, I remember even The way I used to tell my testimony, I would be like, it was me. I was such a rebellious kid. Like, I was a bad kid. And I'm just like, why would I talk about myself like that?

I know you weren't I was like Peter I was like a ball you were like ball I would say I was like Peter and like yeah sure I was replaced but it's just like it's I guess sometimes I'm just my inability to even allow myself permission to yeah feel pain and

I know you weren't I was like Peter I was like a ball you were like ball I would say I was like Peter and like yeah sure I was replaced but it's just like it's I guess sometimes I'm just my inability to even allow myself permission to yeah feel pain and

it comes to a point I think where you can't like run from it anymore and God is just taking I'm doing like rapid rapid healing so quickly and part of me is like I don't know I always think like he's getting me ready to have kids like there's a lot I have to I want to have kids obviously really badly and there's just a lot that needs to be addressed and healed and but yeah I'm

it comes to a point I think where you can't like run from it anymore and God is just taking I'm doing like rapid rapid healing so quickly and part of me is like I don't know I always think like he's getting me ready to have kids like there's a lot I have to I want to have kids obviously really badly and there's just a lot that needs to be addressed and healed and but yeah I'm