April

It is what it is. I mean, quite frankly, I don't think any of us at different times throughout the story look any better than the next, right? Like, we're a family struggling. Like I said, I mean, I know I'm going to take some heat for pointing my finger at him and doing so, so... Like, I mean, up until the pain, I was absolutely 100% sure that my father was a serial killer.

It is what it is. I mean, quite frankly, I don't think any of us at different times throughout the story look any better than the next, right? Like, we're a family struggling. Like I said, I mean, I know I'm going to take some heat for pointing my finger at him and doing so, so... Like, I mean, up until the pain, I was absolutely 100% sure that my father was a serial killer.

I have no fear about the repercussions for what I've had to do because I've had to do what I had to do so that we could figure things out. We could either put my dad in place or take him out of place. And that's what we've been able to do, you know, in order to move on. You know, and I'm not going to ask you to to paint me as a rosy character or a villain. Like, I just do you know what I'm saying?

I have no fear about the repercussions for what I've had to do because I've had to do what I had to do so that we could figure things out. We could either put my dad in place or take him out of place. And that's what we've been able to do, you know, in order to move on. You know, and I'm not going to ask you to to paint me as a rosy character or a villain. Like, I just do you know what I'm saying?

Like, yeah, it's one of those things where it is what it is. I mean, that's the truth is the truth. And I'm just so sick of dealing in in lies and like hidden information that I just like the truth is the truth. And, you know, not all truths are great. Not all truths are cheerful and pretty. You know, some of them are heartbreaking and it is what it is.

Like, yeah, it's one of those things where it is what it is. I mean, that's the truth is the truth. And I'm just so sick of dealing in in lies and like hidden information that I just like the truth is the truth. And, you know, not all truths are great. Not all truths are cheerful and pretty. You know, some of them are heartbreaking and it is what it is.

and that's unfortunately when people take the lives of other people i know this is going to sound really horrible to say but in some ways heidi had it the easiest out of all of us you know what i mean by that like just you know like when she died she died um it was brutal but we have we have been living in this fucking nightmare for 40 something years

and that's unfortunately when people take the lives of other people i know this is going to sound really horrible to say but in some ways heidi had it the easiest out of all of us you know what i mean by that like just you know like when she died she died um it was brutal but we have we have been living in this fucking nightmare for 40 something years

The torture, the pain, just the questions, the darkness, the secrets, just everything. It's just this whole whirlwind cycle. And people, when they take other people's lives, they don't realize, like, it's the survivors. It's the survivors that suffer greatly their entire lives. I'm not going to lie. I'm not disappointed. I'm relieved. But I'm still shocked.

The torture, the pain, just the questions, the darkness, the secrets, just everything. It's just this whole whirlwind cycle. And people, when they take other people's lives, they don't realize, like, it's the survivors. It's the survivors that suffer greatly their entire lives. I'm not going to lie. I'm not disappointed. I'm relieved. But I'm still shocked.

I'm still shocked because, man, when I tell you I was 100%, I mean, the bones in my body told me. I got goosebumps, you know, when things started coming together, like just real goosebumps. And he's just such a son of a bitch that it just, it made sense. It made, I guess for me, it made sense. It made all of his bizarre, horrific, abusive, neglectful behaviors make sense to me.

I'm still shocked because, man, when I tell you I was 100%, I mean, the bones in my body told me. I got goosebumps, you know, when things started coming together, like just real goosebumps. And he's just such a son of a bitch that it just, it made sense. It made, I guess for me, it made sense. It made all of his bizarre, horrific, abusive, neglectful behaviors make sense to me.

And now I have to start over and try to make sense of this disgusting human being. I know it probably just sounds really, really bad to say, but, like, in my mind, I was just like, okay, you know what? Like, Mike... My dad's a murderer. Like that explains all of his behaviors. That explains everything.

And now I have to start over and try to make sense of this disgusting human being. I know it probably just sounds really, really bad to say, but, like, in my mind, I was just like, okay, you know what? Like, Mike... My dad's a murderer. Like that explains all of his behaviors. That explains everything.

It explains his emotional outbursts, his violent rages, his inability to be affectionate to his children, you know, his constant need to scare and to just all these horrible, horrible things that he did to all of us growing up, including his own life. Like it just explains away all those behaviors. And now I'm left going, okay, so he's not a murderer, but Like, what are you?

It explains his emotional outbursts, his violent rages, his inability to be affectionate to his children, you know, his constant need to scare and to just all these horrible, horrible things that he did to all of us growing up, including his own life. Like it just explains away all those behaviors. And now I'm left going, okay, so he's not a murderer, but Like, what are you?

See, now I'm getting emotional. Yes, for me, I just... To explain what we all fucking went through as kids. Because none of it made sense. None of it made sense. Ugh, so painful. Because you see her. You heard her voice. Like, she was so vibrant. And, like... She was like a butterfly. She was just always flying about. She was always doing something silly, something fun.

See, now I'm getting emotional. Yes, for me, I just... To explain what we all fucking went through as kids. Because none of it made sense. None of it made sense. Ugh, so painful. Because you see her. You heard her voice. Like, she was so vibrant. And, like... She was like a butterfly. She was just always flying about. She was always doing something silly, something fun.

And it's like you have all of that, and then it's smoothed out.

And it's like you have all of that, and then it's smoothed out.