Ari

One day I get a call from her.

And I was mad.

I blamed him.

And when I get upset, I don't like to talk about it.

I feel like if I talk about it, you're either, one, not going to respond the way I want you to respond, or two, you're not going to care enough

So I'm wasting my time.

So in turn, I go silent and I went silent.

So I went home and two months later he passed away.

And so she's sitting me down and she tells me all that we're planning for his funeral.

We go to his funeral right after we're shopping.

There was like, I feel like everything was so quick about it, but I can remember shopping.

I can remember going to Springfield Mall.

I can remember all of that.

And for me, it's like, I don't know if that's how she wanted it to be.

But that's not how I wanted it to be.

I don't know how I wanted it to be.

But looking back, I wish it wasn't Funeral Victoria's Secret.

You know what I'm saying?

I wish it was a, you just saw your biological mother in person for the first time and watched me and her get into it.

Do you want to talk about it?