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be involved and maybe we can have a good relationship because that's always what I wanted.

I always wanted me and my mom to get to the place where I felt like she liked me.

I never felt like my mom liked me.

Maybe when I was a kid, she loved me and she did all that.

But like at the bare minimum, I don't think she liked me.

So come after high school, after, excuse me, after college, I moved to Richmond and I'm living in Richmond and my little sister is good.

She's healthy.

She's happy living her best life, graduated high school, did all the things.

And yeah,

It came to the point of what is me and my mother's relationship.

And that's when I started to dissect it.

And that's when I started to realize that a lot of things that she did, I didn't deserve.

And it's like, I can't justify because growing up, I would always say my mother took me from an abusive household.

And yes, she may have given me emotional abuse, but at least it wasn't abusive, you know, emotional versus physical abuse.

Yeah.

And I feel like for a long time, love was about...

how much you did to change yourself into receiving that love from that person.

So I think that that tracked into my friendships, my relationships, all of that because I was craving my mother.

I wanted my mom to validate my feelings and I felt like she never validated my emotions.

And as when I was younger,