Ashleigh Freckleton

I have a boyfriend.

He doesn't know I'm here.

And he's saying, why not?

You know, it's integrated for you.

And basically he wore her down and she went through with it.

And I said, and how did you feel afterwards?

And she just shrugged and said, good, very unconvincingly.

And she said, then she went home and she was spending time with her family and she just realized how good she felt within herself.

She knew that it had been good for her.

And my immediate thinking was, wow.

Or were you really so relieved to be home with your family and so at peace with your familiar people around you and you kind of, because of the cognitive dissonance of, you know, what actually happened to you, you sort of went, oh, yeah, this was good for me rather than I feel good being here.

yeah and then she came back so she got invited back and she said oh yeah same thing again you know I was sitting in front of him I was crying I was saying I don't want to do this I don't want to do this and he said why not we've already done it before why won't you do it again and he wore her down and she went through with it I said how did you feel afterwards and she said yeah good like she shrugged and then she said and then you know I don't know why I said this to him but you know I told him I didn't want to go back a third time

And he got really mad at me and I got a bad feeling like he was angry at me for that.

And I don't know why I said that.

And she was shaming herself for saying she didn't want to do it.

And then she was menstruating and he won't touch you if you're menstruating.

So she got sent back to the house.

And I just couldn't help but think I would be her.

I was like, I would be sitting on the floor crying.

I would be saying I didn't want to do this.