Aviva DeKornfeld

She suddenly wanted to do a lot more than just put her head down on his shoulder.

She looked at his mouth in the mirror and wondered, what would it be like to kiss him?

Wondered how his mouth would feel on other parts of her body.

We were doing the same thing.

It really tickled me.

I was like, because I remembered that feeling of being so afraid

towards the end of the time when we were calling each other that I would like out myself or just feeling once I became like a sexual person myself like a pubescent myself those conversations about like those books being like ah like don't see me yeah I'm realizing she probably felt a version of that the whole time or was just having to constantly think about like okay don't talk about when they had sex in the kitchen but what happened the plot line like I don't know it makes me feel closer to her that we were like doing this song and dance

Exactly.

It's like lie almost feels like too harsh of a word.

Do you know what I mean?

Yeah.

It's just like...

two people translating what they're what's going on in their lives for the other person you know right it's a version of what we all do all the time a hundred percent you know like when we talk to like our parents about like our relationship you might not be like well i think i might break up with him because the sex not great like you you you might i'm just not feeling it you know what i mean we do these edits all the time yeah like yeah we were fighting and then we made up yeah exactly

I've been watching Heated Rivalry, which is like this HBO Max show that's based on a romance novel, but it's a gay romance novel.

It's about hockey players.

And I'm like loving it.

It's like my favorite show right now.

And I'm kind of like laughing to myself as I watch it because I'm like, I come from a line of people who enjoy this.

Let's be clear to the listener.

I'm not thinking about my grandma necessarily when I'm watching a lot of those scenes.