Barbara Scully

Oh, no, I think the darts had just arrived and it was snowing.

And so the trains were cancelled and I couldn't get into work.

So I came back home and I arrived back home at about 10 o'clock and he was in the kitchen and I was still talking to him as I needed to.

So I came in the kitchen and said, I'm not going into work because there's no trains.

And he turned around and came over to me and he put his arms around me and he said, we'll stand by you, we'll support you.

And that was all he said.

And he never said anything else.

And for the rest of the pregnancy, my mother sat in a corner knitting matinee jumpers and cardigans and all the rest of it.

And my father was in complete denial.

We never talked about the fact that I was going to have a baby.

And on the night that I went into labour...

Now, and I wouldn't go to any antenatal classes.

I did not want to know.

I thought, I don't want to just, I don't know.

I'll just go in and do whatever I need to do.

I was terrified.

And I thought, I'll just go in and do whatever on the day, but I don't want to go to classes.

I don't want to know.

And on the night that I felt the first contractions and my mother was, my parents were in bed and I remember going up and waking up my mother and saying, come here, what does the contraction feel like?

And she was going, I haven't a clue.