Belle Rape

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Finding Peak with Ryan Hanley · How Faith and Branding Can Ignite Your True Potential · 19 Dec 2024 podcast

So then did she have to get another cat? Is that how that worked?

Yeah, absolutely. Well, first of all, thanks so much for having me on. We talked about before we started that, like, we kind of matched unintentionally. I want to be like, yeah, I called Ryan. I didn't call him and tell him what to wear and he didn't call me. So I really love this. And That kind of conversation, I never could have gotten away with in corporate America, but that's my personality.

So I say, yeah, I am a corporate dropout. I used to be so ashamed of that because I felt like I just completely failed at my last corporate job. And by that, part of that was, yes, I lost my identity. I was trying to fix myself into this...

It was classic square peg round hole situation that every day for three, three and a half years, I was trying to be something that a leader in a position I was never meant to be in. The position was never meant for me. I took it because it kind of seemed like the right fit at the right time. And I was chasing money. And I was like, I can do this. And after I got into it, it was just drudgery.

And I was just like, I can't continue to do this. I truly lost myself in that position trying to find and figure out something that I was never meant to be. And that is heartbreaking, especially if you're someone who is type A, a go-getter, very driven, never says no. Like, I had no boundaries either.

And that was another part of losing myself is that I was working like seven days a week, which is stupid. Dumb. I mean, dumb. As passionate as I am about the work that I do now, and I love what I do, I don't work seven days a week because your girl needs a rest. Everybody needs a rest. So, yeah, I was just so unbelievably lost.

And I'm so fortunate that I was able to kind of reverse engineer finances and what I was doing to be able to leave that job. Thankfully, thankfully, thankfully, and figure out who I am again.

Yeah. Oh, man, you you like hit the nail on the head. And you just reminded me of so you've seen a Christmas and on a Christmas story. What is it? National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation. So Clark Griswold, he's wrapping up his last few days of the Christmas year or of the year. He's going to go on Christmas vacation.

And the big boss comes by and there's like all of the peons following him in a row. And he starts out like. Yeah, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa. I mean, all the things about having to get to the end of the line. He's like, kiss my A, kiss my A. I'm like, that's how it goes. That's how it goes. I feel like it's such a game. And it really did get to be a game.

And I found myself talking differently to different people in the company. And I'm like, why can't it just be me? I just want to be me. Yeah. And so Ryan, I kid you not. So when I left that job, I put my head in the sand for a few weeks. And by meaning that, like, I just kind of like sat on the couch and I was like, I can't, I can't bell right now. I'm not even at my best to bell enough.

And that is not me. So I just, I needed to rest. I just needed to rest. So I allowed myself that grace period just to rest. And thankfully, like I was able to do that. I know like my husband and I don't have children. So I didn't have like that to continue or to contend with. I mean, being a parent is hard. It is hard. And then, you know, so I...

was able to like feed myself and clothe myself and take care of the basic necessities and figure it out. And I know that was all God's planning. It was his divine timing. It was his plan for my life to be able to do that. So I did it for a couple of weeks. And then I was like, okay, I know I can do this again. So I started just kind of networking again and talking to people.

The more I was really... open and honest with how I was feeling, the more of those similar stories started coming out. And I started talking to more entrepreneurs and people who are really trying to break out of the corporate world and saying, what is... I started asking those deeper questions. I wasn't afraid anymore to ask those deeper questions. I wasn't afraid anymore to be like, what if?

What if I leave? What if I fail? What if I tank? I just started asking them those questions. Like, how are you feeling? How does this make you feel? I wanted to really get to the core of like finding my tribe. Honestly, we all want to find someone who is similar to us. Like, please acknowledge that my feelings are legit. It's like legitimize my feelings right now of what I'm going through.

And if it's not like, okay, then tell me that it's, that it's not like what I should feel. how I could be feeling in the moment. What was your experience? So I started asking more of those questions. I just allowed myself to rest. And then I put myself back out there. And by the grace of God, I just, I got positions like contract jobs, which was great. And I was like, oh, I think I can do this.

Dude. And then, bro, bro, let me just say it like kiddos say it, bro. COVID hit. Had I known that COVID was coming, I probably would not have had enough gumption to leave my job. I would have still been there. I would have suffered through it. But I just took it as an opportunity like, hey, the world is shutting down.

I can figure out a business to make this work now because I know I can do my job from just about anywhere. You don't need me sitting in your office. You don't need me to hold down real estate that you don't want to pay for anyway. to have a position to do my job with excellence.

So yeah, I just kind of, I got my feelings validated, had a good cry, got a snack, put my big girl panties on, straightened my crown and kept going.

Yeah, yeah. So in the corporate world, it really wasn't something that I was... open to talking about as much. It was kind of poo-pooed. It just, you know, it was never a hard-written state and rule, like, do not talk about your faith. Do not talk about, you know, your beliefs. It just wasn't something that I felt like I could be super open about. No one was really receptive to it. But

It really dawned on me one day when I think I was listening to another podcast. I can't even tell you what it was. I listened to so many podcasts and listened to so many books that there was a phrase in it that said, you know, at the end of our life, we all want to get to that point where you get to the pearly gates and you hear God say, well done, my good and faithful servant. Done?

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