Ben Owen

I did not build a business that could exist in my absence. And I knew that. And part of it was fear because I was a control freak. And part of it was I was too busy drinking than teaching somebody to run it in my absence. So I leave detox. I completed detox. I leave without going to the rehab, which I knew was a bad idea. But I also didn't have a choice. I guess I had a choice.

I just made the wrong one. I left. I went back to work. And three days later, I walked into the ER at Babs East, puking out blood, talking probably more slurred. But according to them, I set the Tennessee Ambulatory State Record, Tennessee State Record for ambulatory BAC. I blew a .46, denying I'd been drinking. And I almost bled to death. Jeez.

I just made the wrong one. I left. I went back to work. And three days later, I walked into the ER at Babs East, puking out blood, talking probably more slurred. But according to them, I set the Tennessee Ambulatory State Record, Tennessee State Record for ambulatory BAC. I blew a .46, denying I'd been drinking. And I almost bled to death. Jeez.

I just made the wrong one. I left. I went back to work. And three days later, I walked into the ER at Babs East, puking out blood, talking probably more slurred. But according to them, I set the Tennessee Ambulatory State Record, Tennessee State Record for ambulatory BAC. I blew a .46, denying I'd been drinking. And I almost bled to death. Jeez.

They were very afraid I had given myself something called esophageal varices, which is pretty much always fatal. You literally hemorrhage from your esophagus from drinking and die. I lost a lot of blood. Nine days in the ICU. And... I tried my best to get a handle on the drinking after that, but just not drinking. I still wasn't going to go to meetings. I don't need that shit.

They were very afraid I had given myself something called esophageal varices, which is pretty much always fatal. You literally hemorrhage from your esophagus from drinking and die. I lost a lot of blood. Nine days in the ICU. And... I tried my best to get a handle on the drinking after that, but just not drinking. I still wasn't going to go to meetings. I don't need that shit.

They were very afraid I had given myself something called esophageal varices, which is pretty much always fatal. You literally hemorrhage from your esophagus from drinking and die. I lost a lot of blood. Nine days in the ICU. And... I tried my best to get a handle on the drinking after that, but just not drinking. I still wasn't going to go to meetings. I don't need that shit.

The infection came back. I mean, my health was absolute trash. My inducible liver enzymes were like triple the upper limits than normal. I had some other blood work way off, and so the infection came back. back on the damn pain pills and Deaton has moved back to Maine. So my, my connection with the rocks is gone. Uh, I had an employee that I had recently hired who was out on bond for drug charges.

The infection came back. I mean, my health was absolute trash. My inducible liver enzymes were like triple the upper limits than normal. I had some other blood work way off, and so the infection came back. back on the damn pain pills and Deaton has moved back to Maine. So my, my connection with the rocks is gone. Uh, I had an employee that I had recently hired who was out on bond for drug charges.

The infection came back. I mean, my health was absolute trash. My inducible liver enzymes were like triple the upper limits than normal. I had some other blood work way off, and so the infection came back. back on the damn pain pills and Deaton has moved back to Maine. So my, my connection with the rocks is gone. Uh, I had an employee that I had recently hired who was out on bond for drug charges.

And, uh, obviously before I hired him asked what and why and all that. And I decided to give this guy a shot. None of my employees knew how bad things were with me. Um, Or how bad they had gotten with the pain pills. Obviously, they knew the drinking had gotten really bad because I was passed out in my office and shit. But I'd hid the pain pill thing from them pretty well.

And, uh, obviously before I hired him asked what and why and all that. And I decided to give this guy a shot. None of my employees knew how bad things were with me. Um, Or how bad they had gotten with the pain pills. Obviously, they knew the drinking had gotten really bad because I was passed out in my office and shit. But I'd hid the pain pill thing from them pretty well.

And, uh, obviously before I hired him asked what and why and all that. And I decided to give this guy a shot. None of my employees knew how bad things were with me. Um, Or how bad they had gotten with the pain pills. Obviously, they knew the drinking had gotten really bad because I was passed out in my office and shit. But I'd hid the pain pill thing from them pretty well.

So, as long as they weren't spilling alcohol, they thought everything was good with Ben. I ended up buying pain pills off this dude. And it gets, like, really expensive. Like, I can't keep sneaking this much money out without Aaron noticing. And he... He ended up getting me heroin one day. And I hate needles, which sounds crazy because I'm covered in tattoos. I've gotten these since being clean.

So, as long as they weren't spilling alcohol, they thought everything was good with Ben. I ended up buying pain pills off this dude. And it gets, like, really expensive. Like, I can't keep sneaking this much money out without Aaron noticing. And he... He ended up getting me heroin one day. And I hate needles, which sounds crazy because I'm covered in tattoos. I've gotten these since being clean.

So, as long as they weren't spilling alcohol, they thought everything was good with Ben. I ended up buying pain pills off this dude. And it gets, like, really expensive. Like, I can't keep sneaking this much money out without Aaron noticing. And he... He ended up getting me heroin one day. And I hate needles, which sounds crazy because I'm covered in tattoos. I've gotten these since being clean.

And the first time he got it, I snorted it, and I did not get the feeling I wanted from it. And he shot me up.

And the first time he got it, I snorted it, and I did not get the feeling I wanted from it. And he shot me up.

And the first time he got it, I snorted it, and I did not get the feeling I wanted from it. And he shot me up.

and then later that day i shot myself up and within a week i had a 600 day heroin habit he shot you up how did that conversation go i was like i hate needles so you gotta show me how to do this and he got my hand where i don't even have veins anymore but i used to have huge veins and he shot me up um and so that progressed very very quickly what did that feel like