Ben Owen

Like a white guy driving a brand new Tahoe or a brand new F-150 or a brand new, or not brand new, but a 68 GTO. Multiple times a day. Like, it's very clear what I'm going out there to do, you know? But I wouldn't buy a bunch at once because I kept telling myself, this is it. I'm going to quit. This is it. I'm going to quit. I'm going to taper off. I'm going to taper off.

Like a white guy driving a brand new Tahoe or a brand new F-150 or a brand new, or not brand new, but a 68 GTO. Multiple times a day. Like, it's very clear what I'm going out there to do, you know? But I wouldn't buy a bunch at once because I kept telling myself, this is it. I'm going to quit. This is it. I'm going to quit. I'm going to taper off. I'm going to taper off.

It's just insanity took over my thinking. Why did you want to quit? Why did I want to quit? Yeah. I never wanted to be on it to begin with. That one time I got that hug from God and I was hooked. Never had that feeling again. Never felt that good again, but I couldn't stop doing it. But it was taking me away from my kids because I'm spending an hour and a half a day or more driving.

It's just insanity took over my thinking. Why did you want to quit? Why did I want to quit? Yeah. I never wanted to be on it to begin with. That one time I got that hug from God and I was hooked. Never had that feeling again. Never felt that good again, but I couldn't stop doing it. But it was taking me away from my kids because I'm spending an hour and a half a day or more driving.

It's just insanity took over my thinking. Why did you want to quit? Why did I want to quit? Yeah. I never wanted to be on it to begin with. That one time I got that hug from God and I was hooked. Never had that feeling again. Never felt that good again, but I couldn't stop doing it. But it was taking me away from my kids because I'm spending an hour and a half a day or more driving.

So hold on, hold on.

So hold on, hold on.

So hold on, hold on.

Never happens again. Well, you constantly have to increase the amount of dope you're doing. You can get pretty close to it again or you can get it again. But it's taking more and more dope. The more dope you're adding, like, the chances you're going to kill yourself keeps climbing. You know what I mean? And so I got to the point where I was shooting a gram at a time sometimes.

Never happens again. Well, you constantly have to increase the amount of dope you're doing. You can get pretty close to it again or you can get it again. But it's taking more and more dope. The more dope you're adding, like, the chances you're going to kill yourself keeps climbing. You know what I mean? And so I got to the point where I was shooting a gram at a time sometimes.

Never happens again. Well, you constantly have to increase the amount of dope you're doing. You can get pretty close to it again or you can get it again. But it's taking more and more dope. The more dope you're adding, like, the chances you're going to kill yourself keeps climbing. You know what I mean? And so I got to the point where I was shooting a gram at a time sometimes.

I mean, that's, like, I don't know how I never OD'd. You never OD'd? Never. I've always had a really weirdly high tolerance to things. So...

I mean, that's, like, I don't know how I never OD'd. You never OD'd? Never. I've always had a really weirdly high tolerance to things. So...

I mean, that's, like, I don't know how I never OD'd. You never OD'd? Never. I've always had a really weirdly high tolerance to things. So...

Yeah. Yeah, that I did. But I wanted to stop because it controlled every aspect of my life. I couldn't even sleep without getting dope sick. Did your wife know? Well, it started in Halloween. She figured it out end of June. How'd she figure it out? She found a box of syringes in the garage. I was not very good at hiding things. She'd known something was up.

Yeah. Yeah, that I did. But I wanted to stop because it controlled every aspect of my life. I couldn't even sleep without getting dope sick. Did your wife know? Well, it started in Halloween. She figured it out end of June. How'd she figure it out? She found a box of syringes in the garage. I was not very good at hiding things. She'd known something was up.

Yeah. Yeah, that I did. But I wanted to stop because it controlled every aspect of my life. I couldn't even sleep without getting dope sick. Did your wife know? Well, it started in Halloween. She figured it out end of June. How'd she figure it out? She found a box of syringes in the garage. I was not very good at hiding things. She'd known something was up.

I mean, like, our business is falling apart. I bounced payroll. That's never happened. I look like somebody coming out of a concentration camp. I looked like death. I weighed like 130 pounds maybe, you know. And I'm not drinking. So she knows it's not that. She knew something was up. She found that box of rigs that day and lost it on me. I've never seen her that upset in my whole life.

I mean, like, our business is falling apart. I bounced payroll. That's never happened. I look like somebody coming out of a concentration camp. I looked like death. I weighed like 130 pounds maybe, you know. And I'm not drinking. So she knows it's not that. She knew something was up. She found that box of rigs that day and lost it on me. I've never seen her that upset in my whole life.

I mean, like, our business is falling apart. I bounced payroll. That's never happened. I look like somebody coming out of a concentration camp. I looked like death. I weighed like 130 pounds maybe, you know. And I'm not drinking. So she knows it's not that. She knew something was up. She found that box of rigs that day and lost it on me. I've never seen her that upset in my whole life.