Ben Owen

Like, it was, the students literally ran that school. So I started talking to the psychiatrist at this rehab place. And remember, I was a nerd. I'd read the DSM. It was the DSM-IV back then, front to back. I don't even know how many times. What's that? I think it stands for Diagnostics and Statistics Manual.

It tells doctors how to diagnose diseases, including mental health, or particularly mental health. You read that at what age? I think the first time I heard it, I was 12. Whenever the DSM-IV came out, I was reading it. Because... I wanted to impress my dad. My whole life was spent trying to become my dad or to please him or make him happy. And this is not any fault of his.

It tells doctors how to diagnose diseases, including mental health, or particularly mental health. You read that at what age? I think the first time I heard it, I was 12. Whenever the DSM-IV came out, I was reading it. Because... I wanted to impress my dad. My whole life was spent trying to become my dad or to please him or make him happy. And this is not any fault of his.

It tells doctors how to diagnose diseases, including mental health, or particularly mental health. You read that at what age? I think the first time I heard it, I was 12. Whenever the DSM-IV came out, I was reading it. Because... I wanted to impress my dad. My whole life was spent trying to become my dad or to please him or make him happy. And this is not any fault of his.

He was not an overbearing father. I had perfect parents growing up. This was just internalized in my mind that... My life only had validity if my dad was proud of me, which he always was. So I started reading the DSM-IV because he was selling to doctors. I think he was a regional manager with Pfizer by this point in time.

He was not an overbearing father. I had perfect parents growing up. This was just internalized in my mind that... My life only had validity if my dad was proud of me, which he always was. So I started reading the DSM-IV because he was selling to doctors. I think he was a regional manager with Pfizer by this point in time.

He was not an overbearing father. I had perfect parents growing up. This was just internalized in my mind that... My life only had validity if my dad was proud of me, which he always was. So I started reading the DSM-IV because he was selling to doctors. I think he was a regional manager with Pfizer by this point in time.

And he had a tremendous level of respect for docs, and so I wanted to become a doctor. And so I'd read this thing front to back, memorized the whole damn thing. I'm going to caveat this. I've killed a lot of brain cells since then. I'm not that smart anymore, but I used to be. I had near photographic memory. Remember I told you I got weaponized ADHD. That is real.

And he had a tremendous level of respect for docs, and so I wanted to become a doctor. And so I'd read this thing front to back, memorized the whole damn thing. I'm going to caveat this. I've killed a lot of brain cells since then. I'm not that smart anymore, but I used to be. I had near photographic memory. Remember I told you I got weaponized ADHD. That is real.

And he had a tremendous level of respect for docs, and so I wanted to become a doctor. And so I'd read this thing front to back, memorized the whole damn thing. I'm going to caveat this. I've killed a lot of brain cells since then. I'm not that smart anymore, but I used to be. I had near photographic memory. Remember I told you I got weaponized ADHD. That is real.

I go to the psychiatrist and I present myself as a textbook case of somebody with bipolar disorder. I'm not bipolar, but they went ahead and diagnosed me. They did diagnose the ADHD, which is real, and they put me on Ritalin. And since I had read this manual and knew the things to say, I went back and kept going back to this doc at the rehab facility.

I go to the psychiatrist and I present myself as a textbook case of somebody with bipolar disorder. I'm not bipolar, but they went ahead and diagnosed me. They did diagnose the ADHD, which is real, and they put me on Ritalin. And since I had read this manual and knew the things to say, I went back and kept going back to this doc at the rehab facility.

I go to the psychiatrist and I present myself as a textbook case of somebody with bipolar disorder. I'm not bipolar, but they went ahead and diagnosed me. They did diagnose the ADHD, which is real, and they put me on Ritalin. And since I had read this manual and knew the things to say, I went back and kept going back to this doc at the rehab facility.

While in a drug rehab, I have gotten a doctor to prescribe me 120 milligrams of methylphenidate a day, Ritalin, which is like super therapeutic, like way beyond what any kid should ever be on. Needless to say, that created a lot of anxiety and paranoia and other symptoms. And so now they're treating me for those symptoms. So they've got me on Xanax, Valium.

While in a drug rehab, I have gotten a doctor to prescribe me 120 milligrams of methylphenidate a day, Ritalin, which is like super therapeutic, like way beyond what any kid should ever be on. Needless to say, that created a lot of anxiety and paranoia and other symptoms. And so now they're treating me for those symptoms. So they've got me on Xanax, Valium.

While in a drug rehab, I have gotten a doctor to prescribe me 120 milligrams of methylphenidate a day, Ritalin, which is like super therapeutic, like way beyond what any kid should ever be on. Needless to say, that created a lot of anxiety and paranoia and other symptoms. And so now they're treating me for those symptoms. So they've got me on Xanax, Valium.

I didn't even realize it back then, but I'm dependent on all of this shit. And life at home had become pure hell because, you know, I'm trying to get out of this rehab. And every time they let me go home, I do something crazy, like drink a bottle of rubbing alcohol and wake up in an ER with a catheter and don't remember shit. Like I don't know how any of it happened.

I didn't even realize it back then, but I'm dependent on all of this shit. And life at home had become pure hell because, you know, I'm trying to get out of this rehab. And every time they let me go home, I do something crazy, like drink a bottle of rubbing alcohol and wake up in an ER with a catheter and don't remember shit. Like I don't know how any of it happened.

I didn't even realize it back then, but I'm dependent on all of this shit. And life at home had become pure hell because, you know, I'm trying to get out of this rehab. And every time they let me go home, I do something crazy, like drink a bottle of rubbing alcohol and wake up in an ER with a catheter and don't remember shit. Like I don't know how any of it happened.

And so when I said my little brother has a lot of resentments, like that's why this started. And I'm taking all of my parents' attention from him. And it was his dream come true to move to Southern California because he wanted to be an actor. So he's in acting classes. My parents are having to go pick me up out of gutters or have the police pick me up because I've run from the rehab facility.