Ben Owen

Still trying to get heroin. I'm still dope sick. Look, this is the thing. If you've never been dope sick, you don't understand it. You will do literally anything you have to do to prevent it. It is the most terrifying experience a human being can go through. both mentally and physically, but especially mentally. It's bad.

It's just, when I think about that day, I understand women who sell their bodies to feed their addiction. I'm trying to walk down the street with my car in flames and bones sticking out of my foot to get my fix, you know. I ended up getting a, $35,000 insurance check for the GTO. All the evidence of everything bad I'd been doing burned in the car. So I got no trouble that day.

It's just, when I think about that day, I understand women who sell their bodies to feed their addiction. I'm trying to walk down the street with my car in flames and bones sticking out of my foot to get my fix, you know. I ended up getting a, $35,000 insurance check for the GTO. All the evidence of everything bad I'd been doing burned in the car. So I got no trouble that day.

It's just, when I think about that day, I understand women who sell their bodies to feed their addiction. I'm trying to walk down the street with my car in flames and bones sticking out of my foot to get my fix, you know. I ended up getting a, $35,000 insurance check for the GTO. All the evidence of everything bad I'd been doing burned in the car. So I got no trouble that day.

You know, tons of awesome stuff. Some Title II stuff, sub guns, suppressors. And I'd started pawning my guns so that I could maintain my habit and try to keep the business from folding. And so when I got that check, I went and got a lot of guns out of Hawk, got them back. And obviously I bought a lot of drugs too. Geez.

You know, tons of awesome stuff. Some Title II stuff, sub guns, suppressors. And I'd started pawning my guns so that I could maintain my habit and try to keep the business from folding. And so when I got that check, I went and got a lot of guns out of Hawk, got them back. And obviously I bought a lot of drugs too. Geez.

You know, tons of awesome stuff. Some Title II stuff, sub guns, suppressors. And I'd started pawning my guns so that I could maintain my habit and try to keep the business from folding. And so when I got that check, I went and got a lot of guns out of Hawk, got them back. And obviously I bought a lot of drugs too. Geez.

Erin came back from her dad's after I totaled the car, but left again because I wasn't getting any better, you know? And I was trying everything I could to taper off of the heroin and do it on my own. And, you know, going to the firing range is one of the things I used to like to do to try to blow off steam. And so I think it was July 28th. I burned out of money, mostly.

Erin came back from her dad's after I totaled the car, but left again because I wasn't getting any better, you know? And I was trying everything I could to taper off of the heroin and do it on my own. And, you know, going to the firing range is one of the things I used to like to do to try to blow off steam. And so I think it was July 28th. I burned out of money, mostly.

Erin came back from her dad's after I totaled the car, but left again because I wasn't getting any better, you know? And I was trying everything I could to taper off of the heroin and do it on my own. And, you know, going to the firing range is one of the things I used to like to do to try to blow off steam. And so I think it was July 28th. I burned out of money, mostly.

And I go to the warehouse with... I had a little fire range behind my warehouse, or inside the warehouse, it was long. I had a sub gun, two suppressors, like an AR and an AK maybe, and maybe a handgun. Then I went and blew off some steam, and I waited until I was dope sick again, because I refused to buy heroin until I was sick, because I'm trying to taper myself off of it.

And I go to the warehouse with... I had a little fire range behind my warehouse, or inside the warehouse, it was long. I had a sub gun, two suppressors, like an AR and an AK maybe, and maybe a handgun. Then I went and blew off some steam, and I waited until I was dope sick again, because I refused to buy heroin until I was sick, because I'm trying to taper myself off of it.

And I go to the warehouse with... I had a little fire range behind my warehouse, or inside the warehouse, it was long. I had a sub gun, two suppressors, like an AR and an AK maybe, and maybe a handgun. Then I went and blew off some steam, and I waited until I was dope sick again, because I refused to buy heroin until I was sick, because I'm trying to taper myself off of it.

And so I'm trying to, you know, it's insane the way I was, but in my head, in my fucked up thinking, it made sense. And so I'm on my way home. I went and got dope. And I wouldn't let myself use it until I made it home. That was part of the punishment that I was doing to myself. I'm a mile from home, and I get lit up by the cops.

And so I'm trying to, you know, it's insane the way I was, but in my head, in my fucked up thinking, it made sense. And so I'm on my way home. I went and got dope. And I wouldn't let myself use it until I made it home. That was part of the punishment that I was doing to myself. I'm a mile from home, and I get lit up by the cops.

And so I'm trying to, you know, it's insane the way I was, but in my head, in my fucked up thinking, it made sense. And so I'm on my way home. I went and got dope. And I wouldn't let myself use it until I made it home. That was part of the punishment that I was doing to myself. I'm a mile from home, and I get lit up by the cops.

And I'm in a beat-up pickup truck with six grams of dope, a machine gun, and two silencers. And you would have thought they pulled over Pablo Escobar. The traffic stop moves from this gas station to my house because they feel they have cause to search my home. They think I'm selling machine guns. I'm running guns and dope for the cartel.

And I'm in a beat-up pickup truck with six grams of dope, a machine gun, and two silencers. And you would have thought they pulled over Pablo Escobar. The traffic stop moves from this gas station to my house because they feel they have cause to search my home. They think I'm selling machine guns. I'm running guns and dope for the cartel.

And I'm in a beat-up pickup truck with six grams of dope, a machine gun, and two silencers. And you would have thought they pulled over Pablo Escobar. The traffic stop moves from this gas station to my house because they feel they have cause to search my home. They think I'm selling machine guns. I'm running guns and dope for the cartel.

One of the detectives came over and told me they'd talked to Fort Campbell and they know I'm a disgruntled veteran and I stole all of this. What are you fucking talking about? Like, the receipts are the shits of my house. I'm sick as hell, handcuffed in the back of the car. Our little cove, I had a house on the golf course. Like, outside looking in, I was doing great.