Billie Eilish

Like I want I want them to feel like I am right there with them.

And so it's like it's it's a hard balance because for a long time it was pretty easy to do that.

Like I when I was first doing shows, every single show, no matter what.

I would get off stage, walk straight into the audience and meet every single person in the room and like take pictures with everyone, talk to everyone and sign anything.

Like I never it would take hours and hours and it would be like hundreds of people.

And it was like not paid.

It was nothing.

I just I wanted to meet everyone.

Right.

Right.

Right.

I know.

Yeah, it's been hard to figure out how to have the connection with them, but not completely.

Right.

And it's also like with that exact idea, it's like you can have boundaries also.

It's like you don't have to.

I think I used to give my so much of myself to that, that like I kind of hit a wall where I felt like I lost part of myself a little bit because I'd given so much of it to them.

And as much as I loved doing it, I was like, whoa, this is like really affecting me.

And I yeah, it's and also like, again, when it got to a larger scale,

it got a little less human somehow.