Billie Eilish

And so for those few years of becoming this like enormous superstar, I was kind of feeling like, wait, what the hell is the point? I don't have any friends and I don't have like, like I'm losing all the things that I love so deeply and all the people that I love.

And so in a way, the fans kind of saved me in that way because they were my age and I felt like they were the only kind of friends I had for a while.

And so in a way, the fans kind of saved me in that way because they were my age and I felt like they were the only kind of friends I had for a while.

And so in a way, the fans kind of saved me in that way because they were my age and I felt like they were the only kind of friends I had for a while.

Right. Well, it's funny. Like, I always envied that. I remember like watching, you know, videos of men performing, whoever they may be. And, you know, people throwing bras and underwear and, you know, and I always thought like, oh, that's so awesome. So it's so sick, so powerful. Yeah. I always was just jealous of that and I remember when I was first doing shows

Right. Well, it's funny. Like, I always envied that. I remember like watching, you know, videos of men performing, whoever they may be. And, you know, people throwing bras and underwear and, you know, and I always thought like, oh, that's so awesome. So it's so sick, so powerful. Yeah. I always was just jealous of that and I remember when I was first doing shows

Right. Well, it's funny. Like, I always envied that. I remember like watching, you know, videos of men performing, whoever they may be. And, you know, people throwing bras and underwear and, you know, and I always thought like, oh, that's so awesome. So it's so sick, so powerful. Yeah. I always was just jealous of that and I remember when I was first doing shows

You know, fans throw all sorts of things on stage. They throw gifts and presents and different flags of different kinds. And honestly, like right away, people started throwing bras when we were all, me and the audience, 16. And I loved it. I really did. You know, I spent many years having a lot of...

You know, fans throw all sorts of things on stage. They throw gifts and presents and different flags of different kinds. And honestly, like right away, people started throwing bras when we were all, me and the audience, 16. And I loved it. I really did. You know, I spent many years having a lot of...

You know, fans throw all sorts of things on stage. They throw gifts and presents and different flags of different kinds. And honestly, like right away, people started throwing bras when we were all, me and the audience, 16. And I loved it. I really did. You know, I spent many years having a lot of...

Not gender dysphoria about my own gender, but I think a lot of women go through the feeling of, you know, just envying men in any kind of way, one way or the other. And for me, I...

Not gender dysphoria about my own gender, but I think a lot of women go through the feeling of, you know, just envying men in any kind of way, one way or the other. And for me, I...

Not gender dysphoria about my own gender, but I think a lot of women go through the feeling of, you know, just envying men in any kind of way, one way or the other. And for me, I...

would watch videos of different male performers on stage and just feel this like deep sadness in my body that I'll never be able to you know take my shirt off on stage and run around and like not try very hard and like you know just jump around on stage and that's enough and have enough energy from just myself with no backup dancers and no huge stage production and the crowd will still love me.

would watch videos of different male performers on stage and just feel this like deep sadness in my body that I'll never be able to you know take my shirt off on stage and run around and like not try very hard and like you know just jump around on stage and that's enough and have enough energy from just myself with no backup dancers and no huge stage production and the crowd will still love me.

would watch videos of different male performers on stage and just feel this like deep sadness in my body that I'll never be able to you know take my shirt off on stage and run around and like not try very hard and like you know just jump around on stage and that's enough and have enough energy from just myself with no backup dancers and no huge stage production and the crowd will still love me.

And that's just like only a man can do that. And because of that, I think more than almost anything else in my career, I was very, very, very determined to kind of prove that

And that's just like only a man can do that. And because of that, I think more than almost anything else in my career, I was very, very, very determined to kind of prove that

And that's just like only a man can do that. And because of that, I think more than almost anything else in my career, I was very, very, very determined to kind of prove that

thought wrong and I really did I really feel like I did I I didn't like the kind of pop girl leotard you know backup dancers hair done thing I didn't like that for me I liked it for other people but that didn't resonate with me I never saw myself in those people and I Honestly, I never saw myself in any women that I saw on stage, but I did see myself in the men that I saw on stage.