Billy Bob Thornton

So I'm in a wool suit with a conductor hat on.

And just sweating my ass off.

And I go in, and this was in the days when I was still in a honey wagon.

So there's just a little tiny room, you know, a little bathroom and a little couch just like that wide.

And at lunch I went in and I put the air conditioner on.

I took that conductor hat off.

And I looked at myself in the mirror and I thought, you sorry son of a bitch.

You're never going to make it doing any of this shit.

Music, movies, nothing.

You're just, you know, why are you out here, you know, to make, you know, three or four hundred bucks for a day.

And Val Kilmer's a big star and you're just some idiot with a couple of lines, you know.

And I literally made that face in the mirror at myself.

made the face, and I started talking in that voice because I was so in a moment of self-loathing that I literally started going at myself in the mirror.

I did that monologue to the girl that's the college student who comes to interview me in the beginning of the movie.

It's like a nine-minute monologue.

I did that monologue in the mirror to myself right there.

And never wrote it down.

And I can remember it to this day.

Uh, cause I have all these weird afflictions, you know, I have a terrible anxiety and, uh, have obsessive compulsive disorder really bad.

And I was grew up dyslexic and, uh,