Billy Strings

And I love to see her out there hanging with all the fans.

But at the same time, I was leery of them.

You know, I would go over to visit my parents' house and there would be like the fans there that I see in the front row of my concerts all the time.

Mostly I just recognize them from the crowd, you know, and then I get to know them because they're hanging out with my parents or something.

But, you know, and what am I supposed to say?

Like, don't do that.

I don't know.

They're grown people, but...

I don't know.

She was getting older, and I kind of just had this vision of her in my head that I wanted, which is stupid.

It's not realistic to try to come up with somebody else's life in your brain, but I just wanted her to have a garden.

My dad, 70 years old, she was 64.

I was like, man, you guys should be settling down, don't you think, instead of raring and tearing and going and eating all these shrooms and going to all these concerts.

And then she did get wrapped up in the wrong stuff, and that's why she's not here anymore.

Yeah.

Yeah, and it's messed with me my whole life, and now it's going to mess with me for the rest of it.

I have complex post-traumatic stress, and I have anxiety and depression, and I have for years tried to deal with this stuff that happened to me when I was a kid.

It wasn't just being neglected and there not being food in the house and

My parents being strung out and I miss them even though they're sitting right in front of me.

While they were partying and stuff like that, I was around the corner being molested before I was 10 years old and all that stuff.