Blake Cook

So I wrote the letter and I sent it to her and they dropped it. It's the last conversation I ever had with my dad. Man, I'm sorry. So it's a little frustration there. And I heard from him about a week ago. He got out of jail. He spent a year in jail. He said, hey, Blake, I love you. He didn't respond. Hey, I just want to know you're okay. And then two days ago, I got a text. I blocked the number.

So I wrote the letter and I sent it to her and they dropped it. It's the last conversation I ever had with my dad. Man, I'm sorry. So it's a little frustration there. And I heard from him about a week ago. He got out of jail. He spent a year in jail. He said, hey, Blake, I love you. He didn't respond. Hey, I just want to know you're okay. And then two days ago, I got a text. I blocked the number.

I'd appreciate you letting me know that you're okay. I said, I'm not going back to this. I'm not going back to this. Because after they dropped that DVPO and after the justice system and law enforcement that I've dedicated so much time, I trained their little SWAT team for free 15, 20 times because I wanted to give back to my community that I grew up in. I have a small skillset.

I'd appreciate you letting me know that you're okay. I said, I'm not going back to this. I'm not going back to this. Because after they dropped that DVPO and after the justice system and law enforcement that I've dedicated so much time, I trained their little SWAT team for free 15, 20 times because I wanted to give back to my community that I grew up in. I have a small skillset.

I'd appreciate you letting me know that you're okay. I said, I'm not going back to this. I'm not going back to this. Because after they dropped that DVPO and after the justice system and law enforcement that I've dedicated so much time, I trained their little SWAT team for free 15, 20 times because I wanted to give back to my community that I grew up in. I have a small skillset.

I have a passion for this. I want to help you. But when I asked for help of just doing your job, it was crickets. I was trying to do the right thing. I was so close in my mind of helping him. And all I needed was a little help from the law to do their job. And they failed me completely. So after they dropped that, I said, man, fuck law enforcement. Fuck this community.

I have a passion for this. I want to help you. But when I asked for help of just doing your job, it was crickets. I was trying to do the right thing. I was so close in my mind of helping him. And all I needed was a little help from the law to do their job. And they failed me completely. So after they dropped that, I said, man, fuck law enforcement. Fuck this community.

I have a passion for this. I want to help you. But when I asked for help of just doing your job, it was crickets. I was trying to do the right thing. I was so close in my mind of helping him. And all I needed was a little help from the law to do their job. And they failed me completely. So after they dropped that, I said, man, fuck law enforcement. Fuck this community.

And I went straight alcoholic, man. I drank every day, all day. Hate. Pushing my family away. Passing out drunk in my backyard by a fire. And I finally realized that I'm never gonna get over this. And the only way to get over this is to take my life. That was in April. I knew my son's birthday was May 22nd. I said, man, I can't take my life before his birthday. I can't take that from him.

And I went straight alcoholic, man. I drank every day, all day. Hate. Pushing my family away. Passing out drunk in my backyard by a fire. And I finally realized that I'm never gonna get over this. And the only way to get over this is to take my life. That was in April. I knew my son's birthday was May 22nd. I said, man, I can't take my life before his birthday. I can't take that from him.

And I went straight alcoholic, man. I drank every day, all day. Hate. Pushing my family away. Passing out drunk in my backyard by a fire. And I finally realized that I'm never gonna get over this. And the only way to get over this is to take my life. That was in April. I knew my son's birthday was May 22nd. I said, man, I can't take my life before his birthday. I can't take that from him.

And at the time I'm not thinking straight, right? Whether I take it before or after, still gonna ruin his birthday, right? But I was trying to put his feelings first somehow and say, I'm gonna wait. So that was about two weeks when I started really deciding that, you know, I'm dragging my family through the mud. I'm feeling like this. I can't, I need to set them free.

And at the time I'm not thinking straight, right? Whether I take it before or after, still gonna ruin his birthday, right? But I was trying to put his feelings first somehow and say, I'm gonna wait. So that was about two weeks when I started really deciding that, you know, I'm dragging my family through the mud. I'm feeling like this. I can't, I need to set them free.

And at the time I'm not thinking straight, right? Whether I take it before or after, still gonna ruin his birthday, right? But I was trying to put his feelings first somehow and say, I'm gonna wait. So that was about two weeks when I started really deciding that, you know, I'm dragging my family through the mud. I'm feeling like this. I can't, I need to set them free.

I am dead inside from my dad's addiction. Because I did, I tried. I tried to save him. And I failed. I failed miserably. And I thought that I actually had a chance to save him. And I was taking it out on my family by drinking, pushing them away, staying on my phone. So I was like, hey man, it's time to prepare things for when you're gone. So, first thing, bills.

I am dead inside from my dad's addiction. Because I did, I tried. I tried to save him. And I failed. I failed miserably. And I thought that I actually had a chance to save him. And I was taking it out on my family by drinking, pushing them away, staying on my phone. So I was like, hey man, it's time to prepare things for when you're gone. So, first thing, bills.

I am dead inside from my dad's addiction. Because I did, I tried. I tried to save him. And I failed. I failed miserably. And I thought that I actually had a chance to save him. And I was taking it out on my family by drinking, pushing them away, staying on my phone. So I was like, hey man, it's time to prepare things for when you're gone. So, first thing, bills.

I made sure everything was on auto-draft, on one card. Boom. Paperwork for the house, for the cars. Everything went in my safe, labeled, to my wife. It said, to my wife, here are the documents. everything, life insurance, whatever, everything that was important for my afterlife to help her have somewhat of a smooth transition, in my opinion, was there. May 22nd came, we were in Tennessee.

I made sure everything was on auto-draft, on one card. Boom. Paperwork for the house, for the cars. Everything went in my safe, labeled, to my wife. It said, to my wife, here are the documents. everything, life insurance, whatever, everything that was important for my afterlife to help her have somewhat of a smooth transition, in my opinion, was there. May 22nd came, we were in Tennessee.

I made sure everything was on auto-draft, on one card. Boom. Paperwork for the house, for the cars. Everything went in my safe, labeled, to my wife. It said, to my wife, here are the documents. everything, life insurance, whatever, everything that was important for my afterlife to help her have somewhat of a smooth transition, in my opinion, was there. May 22nd came, we were in Tennessee.