Blake Cook

And the next generations of police officer would walk by and just know that's just some guy that died here. And the only people grieving me for the rest of my life would be my wife and son. That's the truth. You don't ever put an agency before your family because the agency moves on. Your family doesn't. They grieve you forever.

And the next generations of police officer would walk by and just know that's just some guy that died here. And the only people grieving me for the rest of my life would be my wife and son. That's the truth. You don't ever put an agency before your family because the agency moves on. Your family doesn't. They grieve you forever.

And the next generations of police officer would walk by and just know that's just some guy that died here. And the only people grieving me for the rest of my life would be my wife and son. That's the truth. You don't ever put an agency before your family because the agency moves on. Your family doesn't. They grieve you forever.

The agency does some bullshit stuff for a couple of days and then don't even communicate with your family anymore. Your badge gets reissued out. Everything. Like you didn't exist except for the picture that collects dust in a hallway that people don't even know who you are. So I got up. I completely excused myself from this.

The agency does some bullshit stuff for a couple of days and then don't even communicate with your family anymore. Your badge gets reissued out. Everything. Like you didn't exist except for the picture that collects dust in a hallway that people don't even know who you are. So I got up. I completely excused myself from this.

The agency does some bullshit stuff for a couple of days and then don't even communicate with your family anymore. Your badge gets reissued out. Everything. Like you didn't exist except for the picture that collects dust in a hallway that people don't even know who you are. So I got up. I completely excused myself from this.

After they told me it would have sounded bad on CNN, I didn't hear anything. I stood up, went to the bathroom outside the gang unit office. It's a single bathroom. Locked the door. I sat down on the ground and just cried my eyes out. I said, I can't do this.

After they told me it would have sounded bad on CNN, I didn't hear anything. I stood up, went to the bathroom outside the gang unit office. It's a single bathroom. Locked the door. I sat down on the ground and just cried my eyes out. I said, I can't do this.

After they told me it would have sounded bad on CNN, I didn't hear anything. I stood up, went to the bathroom outside the gang unit office. It's a single bathroom. Locked the door. I sat down on the ground and just cried my eyes out. I said, I can't do this.

Because I knew that from here on out, I would never be able to make a decision to protect myself in the event of a deadly force encounter, because I'll always think about, am I going to get in trouble? And I can't do that. I can't put my family through it. I wasn't feeling well, man. Called my friend who was my family doctor. And I went and saw her. I just left. I left the apartment.

Because I knew that from here on out, I would never be able to make a decision to protect myself in the event of a deadly force encounter, because I'll always think about, am I going to get in trouble? And I can't do that. I can't put my family through it. I wasn't feeling well, man. Called my friend who was my family doctor. And I went and saw her. I just left. I left the apartment.

Because I knew that from here on out, I would never be able to make a decision to protect myself in the event of a deadly force encounter, because I'll always think about, am I going to get in trouble? And I can't do that. I can't put my family through it. I wasn't feeling well, man. Called my friend who was my family doctor. And I went and saw her. I just left. I left the apartment.

Went and saw her. I guess they were still waiting for me in the IA. I don't know. She said, come in immediately. I went and saw her. I sat down. She said, Blake, you don't look good. I'm like, what do you mean? She goes, no. Like, I see it. You don't look good. Her husband was a retired Green Beret, and she knows the look. And she just talked to me, and I talked to her, and

Went and saw her. I guess they were still waiting for me in the IA. I don't know. She said, come in immediately. I went and saw her. I sat down. She said, Blake, you don't look good. I'm like, what do you mean? She goes, no. Like, I see it. You don't look good. Her husband was a retired Green Beret, and she knows the look. And she just talked to me, and I talked to her, and

Went and saw her. I guess they were still waiting for me in the IA. I don't know. She said, come in immediately. I went and saw her. I sat down. She said, Blake, you don't look good. I'm like, what do you mean? She goes, no. Like, I see it. You don't look good. Her husband was a retired Green Beret, and she knows the look. And she just talked to me, and I talked to her, and

She put me on medical leave. I always mess it up. FM, LFA, whatever that is. It's the medical leave, like the people take when they have babies and stuff. I always mess that up. But Kyle's going to laugh at that because I always mess it up. But she said, hey, you can't do this job no more. She goes, it's going to take your life. I'm just crying, man, because I love this job.

She put me on medical leave. I always mess it up. FM, LFA, whatever that is. It's the medical leave, like the people take when they have babies and stuff. I always mess that up. But Kyle's going to laugh at that because I always mess it up. But she said, hey, you can't do this job no more. She goes, it's going to take your life. I'm just crying, man, because I love this job.

She put me on medical leave. I always mess it up. FM, LFA, whatever that is. It's the medical leave, like the people take when they have babies and stuff. I always mess that up. But Kyle's going to laugh at that because I always mess it up. But she said, hey, you can't do this job no more. She goes, it's going to take your life. I'm just crying, man, because I love this job.

It's the highlight of my life. I was in it, man. I was in it. I didn't get the opportunity to go SF. And here I am in this specialized unit that is just big boy rules. Something I always wanted was, and we were killing it. And man, she gave me my paperwork and I went back to the department. They're like, oh, where'd you go? I was like, hey, I'm out. I'm not doing this no more.

It's the highlight of my life. I was in it, man. I was in it. I didn't get the opportunity to go SF. And here I am in this specialized unit that is just big boy rules. Something I always wanted was, and we were killing it. And man, she gave me my paperwork and I went back to the department. They're like, oh, where'd you go? I was like, hey, I'm out. I'm not doing this no more.